While I absolutely love wrestling naked in the mud with my mental health conditions, I say that dripping with sarcasm. Though that's conjured up thoughts of sissy mud wrestling. Dress up all pretty then get all dirty and gritty hehe. I feel like I'm taking one step forward in this lifestyle and three steps back. I use the term sissy with the nicest of intention, reapropriated as it were. I know it offends some and I don't mean to offend.
I came out as bisexual and a Crossdresser earlier on in the year. Since then I feel very little has changed. Though in this year which I've named 'The No Lube Year' as quite honestly it feels that way, I guess change will come as its own pace.
I am talking to my mum more and more about this lifestyle. Not the perverted kinky parts, I mean that would just be weird but I talk about looking pretty. I tell her about the dresses I buy. She's even offered me a dress that shes altered as she's lost weight but can't alter any more. She says it would fit me. The sissy that used to sneak into her dresses when she was out is crying with joy inside me.
I guess in a way this is moving forward. I'm struggling with meeting people on here. It seems that when I'm talking to people local that we don't get to the point we're one of us says, let's meet up. Conversation seems to fizzle out. It's also been an issue with fake profiles bombarding my notifications and messages. These are obviously fake as there's no profile pic, one pic uploaded and I may be a little insensitive here but there grasp of English is woeful. I'm not sure if these are scammers. Tumblr is riddled with them. I just hope here won't be as it's my sissy sanctuary haha. My aim for the last quarter of the year is to start to learn makeup. Get myself some realistic breast forms and to find someone on here that I'm with a chance of meeting. If someone proves trustworthy to me then meeting in my house isn't a problem, sleepovers including. I just need to get a sense that the person won't attack me or steal from me and if I'm feeling uncomfortable would leave without an issue. My mind may be overthinking again but like I said earlier. Wrestling in the mud haha xx 😘
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7:52 pm Thursday, 24th December, 2020
What you need is to let an older man give you a great blow..your lovely by the way.hope it all works out for you. |
