As I sit here locked within this prison inside of myself, I envision a day when I'll be set free from the shackles which bind me to this lonely, cold, empty dungeon.
Living without the loving romance I need; without the physical and emotional binding I need; without the sheer, dominating passion of a sultry kiss and caressing which goes along with it, makes my soul slump into a deeper, dark abyss, one from which I'm always afraid I'll never emerge from.
There are people I'm interested in; those whom I feel an emotional attachment to, who I could quite easily lower all of my defenses to, allowing them to dominate me for whatever sexual pleasures they would ask of me.
Quite often, I've sat motionless, daydreaming of an encounter with you, envisioning your strong hands grasping my shoulders, pulling me close to you for that first, passionate kiss, then running your hands down to my hips, pulling me so close to you that I'll feel your large, pulsating bulge, only to unzip your pants, grasping your penis with all my strength, and pulling it out for my first glimpse of what you have to offer me when we withdraw to the candle-lit bedroom for a night of heated passion.
In my dreams I envision myself being pushed downwards by your strong arms, and then feeling your hands on the back of my head, pulling my head closer to let me know that you want me to suck your penis as a prelude to what you have in store for me later. As you thrust your penis into my throat and cum in my mouth, I can hear the pleasure in your voice, and also your plans for me later when we're finally embraced in each others arms in the bedroom.
If you only knew how much I'm longing to fulfill your desires of me, how much I wish I could feel your penis inside of me right now, whether I'm laying on my back, on my hands and knees, bent over the bedpost, or sitting in your lap, and how much I would enjoy so very much being your partner, lover, and best friend through whatever life has to offer us.
If you only knew how I wish these dreams could come true for both of us, because I know you need just as much of what I have to offer you, as you have to offer me.
Perhaps all of these dreams and desires will be fulfilled before this spirit within me is set free to live again. But, even then, sometimes I wonder if life will finally treat me the way I need to be treated.
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11:30 am Saturday, 31st May, 2014
Nikkibelle, initially your blog intro about employment law caught my interest, but then I started reading the rest of your blogs with interest. |
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1:06 pm Saturday, 31st May, 2014
Luv2, i think you are trying to say "while you are waiting for that something special to come along, do not lose sight of the wonderful things that are already around you" |
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6:05 pm Monday, 2nd June, 2014
Thank you for your comments; all of them are appreciated so very much! This blog is the only true method I have available for expressing all of my deepest emotions and desires. I thank everyone who is touched by my words because I am touched by yours as well.
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6:18 pm Monday, 2nd June, 2014
being a transexual i know what you mean and what you saying, but its the hardest road we follow and it is not by choice, its a path that is forced on us as much as the preduces and lonelyness we endure. i cant tcome to terms with the fact im too different to be accepted , loved and wanted for me being me. so my way to compansate is sex. i recently found it helps so long as you dont get attched to the person or persons. there is no easy ansew to our life. we just have to get on with it the best we can with the tools we have at our disposal. even tho when i was filling profile out i was crying in sadness as i typed and put down some of the things i like that come as good distraction. i wish you well and hope you find what you seek. x |
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2:18 am Wednesday, 20th January, 2016
Nikki if you've read my other comments you know how I feel about your blogs. I wish we could get to know one another! Love and Kisses,Terri.img src="imagesadultemoticons001.gif" img src="imagesadultemoticons005.gif" img src="imagesadultemoticons002.gif" img src="imagesadultemoticons029.gif" img src="imagesadultemoticons028.gif" img src="imagesadultemoticons014.gif" img src="imagesadultemoticons013.gif" img src="imagesadultemoticons022.gif" |
