1:43 am Monday, 27th April, 2020
Like most of you all, I have only dabbled here and there with dressing. But the beast was too much for me this time, and I finally found myself looking halfway like a girl (with more effort, I think I can actually look very feminine). But the thing is, this all started as, admittedl,y a sexual fetish. I'm trying my best not to be too forward or overly sexual in my interactions because I feel like it might cheapen the experience for those who get something else out of it. Personally, this is strictly fetishistic for me. It's strange. I cannot even begin to understand why I'm so turned on by literally every aspect of it, but I am. And I'm trying to not come off as desperate or slutty even though that's the two things that I really dig about it. And I have noticed a lot of other cdssissies just flat out saying, and I am paraphrasing, "I am soooo desperate for cock. I just want to dominated and treated like a little sissyslut". Now, I am not passing judgement. In fact, it's comforting. A lot (maybe all) of the stuff they say is word for word what's running through my head. I'm worried about laying in on too thick and pushing people away, though. Or looking like a weirdo, which I am no stranger to in my normal world. No one wants to be the odd-man, uh, odd-sissyslut out because she didn't pick up on those invisible community rules and social standards. I suppose my question is, how exactly do I go about this stuff? I really, really enjoy dressing up and knowing that someone, somewhere, probably wants to do unthinkable things to me. But it's a strange field to navigate. |
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2:06 pm Sunday, 3rd May, 2020
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