Jumping in with both feet at Hedo

My husband and I had been together for 14 years and had not been away for a romantic vacation since our honeymoon. For years we had joked with friends about going to Jamaica to the Hedonism 2 resort. The main idea was to go get naked and enjoy sexy time together. Then we started researching the resort and were intrigued-but not ready for swinging- and booked 7 days-just to get naked and be a voyeur. I was terrified! Having a mom bod and carrying a few extra pounds, I was nervous as hell. I pictured a resort of beautiful bodies like it showed on the website. My husband on the other hand-slim and muscular-couldn’t wait to get naked! We hopped the plane and I was still nervous. We drank champagne throughout the flight and I was still nervous. We landed in Jamaica and I was excited but still nervous. We got to the resort and as we were walking to our room, we saw naked people everywhere, lounging on the beds throughout the resort without a care in the world-and I was still nervous. We got to our room and decided to jump right in and head to the nude pool, so I put on a bikini, some thing I hadn’t worn since our honeymoon due to my own self consciousness . I put on a coverup too. As we walked to the nude pool, I kept saying to my husband, “I don’t know if I can do this”. We walked up to the pool hand in hand, me squeezing his from nervousness. Then I saw it. The woman with one breast, the one with the huge abdominal scar, the 300 lb one. The men with pendulous bellies and hard to find penises. The few gorgeous bodies. I realized not everyone was a fashion model and I was more the norm. I stripped off the coverup and bikini and jumped right in. Still nervous but less so. No one batted an eye. No one cringed as I walked by. On the other hand, a few said hello, called me sexy, offered to play with us. This was all so new and we were not swingers so when someone asked if we wanted to play we would stammer out “thanks but we only play with each other”, hoping not to offend. They would say thanks and move along. As we walked through the pool to the swim up bar we saw people having sex on the side of the pool deck, women with their legs dangling in the pool and being eaten out by a man or woman in the pool. We saw men getting blow jobs on the deck chairs. It was a brave new world and we were fascinated!

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