walking in hesitantly and although there are lights far back in the house which i can just see there are none on in the hallway....its eerily quiet... i am aware of silhouettes and shapes of doorways around me ........of a staircase in front of me...seeming to reach high up into the house...... .i reach behind me pushing the door shut and panic sets in as im left in total darkness .........the lights in the back of the house have gone out as the door closed as though on a trip switch............i step forward shakily first one step then another ..my heels clicking on the stone floor...........trying to get my bearings to remember what lies in front of me and to each side....i open my mouth to ask if anyone is there as i have a feeling im not totally alone.......... as i speak im aware of movement behind me and to both sides of me ...figures from the shadows surround me ....i scream out in fright as my wrists are clamped by strong hands gripping me tightly as i twist and turn struggling against them .........trying to free myself...... i feel cold steel envelope each wrist and a hand is clamped over my mouth ......i struggle against who ever has hold of me.......... writhing and kicking out but its no use the people holding me are much stronger than i am and i realise i can't escape from their grip how ever hard i try ........im aware of tears running down my face as i feel the saltiness of them on my lips ...... sheer terror coursing through my body ..but i cant escape their hold ..i realise its futile to struggle....my body limpens as the fight goes out of me ..hoping against hope if i don't antagonise whoever they are they may release me.....
after over half a year of having this profile and due to sir leaving the uk i have had to say a fond but sad goodbye to him and all this profile relates to UPDATE 130309
