48 hours in bondage part nine

i sit for a minute with my engine running...very tempted to turn and drive off but there is nowhere to turn my car around i can only go forwards ..into the unknown ......i know i have to get out of the car and realise my legs are shaking badly.......with no regard for my safety i step out into the semi darkness .......... i dont even look around as i make my way falteringly towards the gates ..on hindsight not a wise thing to do as anything could happen ..... its difficult to walk on the uneven ground in my high heels and as i reach the gates i pull on them ........they open easily for such large old gates ......i go back to my car and sit in it looking through the gates trying to fathom out what could be beyond them....with a bravado i didnt know i possessed i drive through them and get back out to close them behind me .......as i drive up the winding driveway i can see dim lights ahead of me ...they seem so far away but it takes just seconds to reach them ...pulling up i go blank for a second not sure what you expected of me next then i remember and flash my headlights 3 times on.........off...on....off....on....off.......and hesitantly i get out of my car locking it as i go.....heading towards the large oak door at the front of the house ...this is the point of no return but still i keep walking .......as i climb each step im not sure my legs will hold me up as my heart races unnaturally ..my chest heaving in panic as i reach the door .......it crosses my mind that i am actually terrified of what may be about to happen and the feeling of absolute terror engulfing me makes me contemplate fleeing now before i can't ....but im frozen to the spot ..can't move ....... i don't even know how to put one foot in front of the other ..as i lean forward to knock on it the door swings open .....so obviously someone is expecting me .....i push the door further open.....

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