Have you been away some place alone for some time and either some things go right and you meet someone or more who is amazing or you find someone who gets your back that you want to be thankful for that you just want to touch them and hold them and say, thank you to. However, if you do and then realize it, it may either become awkward, because the other person did not expect that from you or they took it another way to be more intimate. If it goes sour, it feels like that connection has been broken and now you may feel less appreciated or weird. It could be that you may want something more and that is not the case. If it turns intimate, either you do or the other person may feel guilty about getting close to someone who is in a relationship that may not understand that feeling and now feel they cheated on them for even doing that. Am I explaining this right? When it becomes close like that when you do, don't you feel like doing your all for someone? I question myself when that happens if I am cheating myself out of love for or from that person. It's only because our time here is short and precious and fleeting. That moment can never come back again and somehow to me, that feels important as something great to remember. Am I the only one who struggles with that? What is the answer?
