i wash my hair over the bath the warm water soothing as it runs over my taught neck muscles ....easing any tension that is building inside me ......towelling my hair dry and brushing it out i walk through to my bedroom .........bending over i dry my hair quickly with the dryer fluffing it out and brushing it again before gathering it up into a ponytail as you asked .....there is a heat in my body i find hard to explain ....ive felt it before ....pure anticipation........ i let my mind wander to previous meetings with you ...........but i have a feeling this will be totally different to any time i have spent with you before .............theres an urgency in your email that everything has to be just so no deviation from any details at all ....what ever happens tonight has been meticulously planned by you ...........and its as though you are almost daring me to try and mess up your arrangements .........but i wont .............i would rather step into the unknown than suffer your wrath if i disobey you ...............the rush of adrenalin i feel as i head towards the unknown leaves me breathless my heart racing in my chest making it tighten ..constricting my normal breathing pattern almost setting off a panic attack ...........i have to get a grip of myself and gain some sort of composure if i am to succeed tonight ...if i am to make you proud of me ........i sit on the edge of my bed breathing slower .......calming myself .........eventually reaching a state of mind that can cope with what ever lies ahead
after over half a year of having this profile and due to sir leaving the uk i have had to say a fond but sad goodbye to him and all this profile relates to UPDATE 130309
