Always been attracted to women

Growing up in a conservative community - girls weren't allowed to like other girls - or heaven forbid to date or have an intimate relationship with another girl. It was just insane - I could have dated the druggie boy with the worst reputation before I could have dated the Junior Miss, Class Valedictorian.


I was cute and had interest from plenty of boys - but I wanted a girlfriend - yes a best friend to pal around with - but also one I could kiss, suck on her tits and eat her pussy during "innocent" sleepovers.


I had a huge crush on one of my friends who was pretty plain-Jane and not very feminine. She was flat chested, wore glasses and had kinda short, dull brown curly hair. Today we'd probably call her butch. She had a nice personality, but boys had no interest in her - but she was the girl of my dreams.


I could never bring myself to tell her how much I wanted to be her lesbian girlfriend. How I wish I had a do over. I would go back and tell her - no matter what. Even if she rejected me and it got out I was a lesbian - if would have been worth it. I think she would have welcomed me as her lesbian girlfriend and we would have been a couple - with an appropriate "cover" story.


I honestly think she was to be the - love of my life - and we would still be together today - as married lesbians.

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