The most beautiful experience I never had.

I was wondering aimlessly through life, no great shakesshakes, just silly little mistakes, but something was always missing from my picture.
   It was that I had never had the chance to fall in love with a transwoman, that is what would complete me, but living in 'the sticks' there was never any chance of my own personal fulfillment or lasting happiness.
   I have had one romance with an older man for a few years, and a couple of women as well, but there was always something missing, and that was the chance to meet a true love, and spend hours, days, weeks and months in bed enjoying the taste of each others hardness, whilst licking her nipples as well.
   That chance never came where I live, but then I joined a dating site, and within hours I was chatting to the most perfect, the most unbelievably perfect young translady.
   She had the biggest eyes, the most perfect face, and a body to die for, I was in love, but this young thing would never be interested in me though.
   She lived in London, I lived in the East, too far as I don't drive I thought, but why not try and chat I thought, so I did. 
   We chatted for hours, and all I could think about was going to London to spend a weekend with my new angel, I would wine and dine her, take her clubbing and have the best of times all weekend, but best of all for me would have been to walk around the streets of the capital actually holding hands with one of god's greatest creations, a beautiful transwoman.
    I would hold her hand tightly, and turn to gaze into those delectable saucer shaped eyes and tell her how beautiful she was, and hoist her up onto a wall near the Thames and tell her how beautiful she was, and that I wanted to marry her, and spend the rest of eternity with her, before taking her to a rented room in The Shard for the most passionate, steamy, sexual encounter that any couple had ever had, we would have made love for the entire weekend, we would have twisted and entwinedentwined, our lips would lock feverishly as our tongues explored every inch of each others mouths and then bodies.
   We would move up and down each other, exploring every millimetre of each sweat laden skin, and then I would suck her **** until she couldn't take it anymore before screaming the biggest ejaculation all over my body.
   With her cream quickly thickening on my skin, I would feverishly scoop up every dropdrop and lick it from my fingers thinking that I was the luckiest guy in the universe.
    I would have J at been happy to hold her, kiss her, make her cum, and show her that she was the most amazing creature ever, and that no-one, in any galaxy, any universe, or any dimension could have had the love for my beautiful transwoman that I had. 
   She was 'the one,' she was my forever girl, and this two would become one for the rest of eternity, outliving even this whole universe, we would be locked together forever, and that was all I had ever dreamt of, that was the reason for my existentialism, and would be my validation.
   But, then I woke up, I realised that I am one of so many that do not get that happy ending, I do not get to ride off into the sunset with my dream transgirl, and maybe, in another life-time, who knows?
   Now I go back to the dolldrums of life, being trapped in a relationship with a woman that I can't stand to hold when I know my own truth, my own personal desires, and my own reason for living.
  I probably, no, sorry, I will not get my happy ending, but if anyone reading this gets the chance for a truly safe and happy ending, please take it, because whether you believe in re-re-incarnation or not, the mind and body you have right now, you will never get them again, do make the most of life, grab it and make it yours, otherwise, like me, you will be looking through your rain spattered windows watching the world go by, mourning the changes you never took, or the regrets that will always plague you.
   If you have the chance of lovelove, whether it be with a man or woman, a transman or transwoman, or anyone else just take it, don't regret the missed opportunities, but I implore everybody, please do it respectfully, please do it with dignity and care, and please don't be cruel, as that is the worst of humanity.
   Just be kind, loving and happy!

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