Did the internet turn me into a t-girl and cock craving sissy?

I have always had a thing for female clothing. From a very young age I was fascinated by my mum's tights hanging on the drying line over the bath. I almost remember the first time I pulled a pair on and entered my life of crossdressing. I moved on to wearing my older sisters clothes. The day she bought a leotard I knew I had to wear it, to feel my body totaly wrapped in tight lycra.


Sadly I never accepted myself as a cross dressing sissy so as I grew older I tried to live a life of 'normality' with my desire to be femonine a constant itch in the back of my mind.


Then came the internet. I no longer needed to catch glimpses of leg fetish magazines on top shelves. I could acces a world of lady's lovely legs instantly in the privacy of my own home. You know how watching youtube videos for how to fix your car headlamps ends up after a few clicks to watching cats sitting on robot vacuum cleaners? It's a bit like how watching porn leads to shemales. Not something I was interested in but, hey, let's take a little peek. It must have rekindled my desire for crossdressing because before long I was chatting with other crossdressers online. Occasionally I would get men trying to chat to me but I wasn't interested in men, no, I am a hetro-crossdresser, I had convinced myself.


In time I started responding to the more polite and eloquent gentlemen and roleplayed with them. Feeling so naughty as I played a lady for them, it made me feel something I hadn't felt before. Is it what real girls feel when men take an interest in them, or is it just a strange male fetish? I don't know, but as time went by I became more and more interested in looking at only cds and t-girls. And the thought of being a girl for a man makes my legs go weak.


In the past year I have identified with being a sissy too. Not entirely sure what the definition of a sissy is, but I like the word and the feeling of humiliation when I chat online as one. I have never felt more comfortable in accepting myself as a crossdressing sissy than whe pretending to be a 'normal'man.


Did the internet turn me into a simpering sissy girl begging for humilaiton from Daddy? No, it didn't. It just showed me there were others out there who aren't too different from me, and those who love what I am.

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