30 years ago i was a straight , vanillvanilla guy. But even as a kid i had thoughts related to being gay, and was secretly attracted to guys. I liked going in the woods w/ my freinds because we sometimes would show each other our cocks. We even played strip poker once, i lost, and being naked in front of my freinds actually gave an erection. Also, tv shows and movies that showed people getting tied up aroused me. I supressed these thoughts and feelings for years, had normal teen years and young adult years, but those thoughts and feelings were there and started bubbling to the surface.
As i got older and occasionally watched porn the deep seeded desires eventually rose to the surface and led to occasional trips to dominatrixes. As i experimented more, they would use dildoes and then strap ons, leading to some bi curious thoughts and eventual experimentation. I even sucked a few cocks. I also met w/ a couple of gay doms.
Still, i tried to fight it off, excusing it as experimenting. But each experience chipped away at my resistince. Several years ago i began doin more of the sucking and had my first anal sex w/ a guy. Finally a dam broke, i was flooded w/ the understanding that i was attracted to men. I also realized i liked being submissive in these encounters. Finally 18 months ago i began to activly seek sexual encounters w/ men where i was subserviant and vulnerable, even used. I began to enjoy swallowing cum and even sucked off 3 guys at a book store.
Thru my interactions at some websites and talk lines i concluded i am gay, love sexually satisfying men, being used and even posessed by them, and liked the feeling of giving up control to them, being less than human and more like a possesion. I liked being a submissive, gay slut.
I thought this would be mortifying, a devastating occurance. Instead, it was liberating. Besides the sexual rush of having a man strip me, tie me up, taunt and tease me, and use my orafices as cum buckets, i felt liberation...i could be me, give into my own pleasure in servicing men, and feeling happy about it.
So that is where i am now. I freely am happy i am gay. I love being submissive, giving total control over, i even love the humiliation of being a mans sexual plaything. I am glad i am a gay slut.
