I am grateful for my obedience training

I haven’t been allowed a “normal” orgasm in a year. My owner has decided to participate in deepening my submission to her. Her technique which she has been refining for over 15 years involves having me utter mantras while I’m being constantly edged. I’m restricted to ruined orgasms. I’ve been trained to like them and not want anything else. She has trained me to let her know as soon as I feel an ejaculation cycle starting. She listens and knows how to get in the middle of the cycle and break it. Sometimes we’ll discuss her desire to forced me to play in public and be humiliated. She tells me that obedience is more important than having an orgasm. That it is what I need if I want to be the best slave I can be. I repeat these phrases over and over again. All the while she is stroking the cock that belongs to her and is one of the keys to my mental transformation.


There are three techniques she uses and I almost never know which she will use. For all of these she uses her hand or foot. The first is the ruined orgasm. She’ll edge me using various light to heavy pressures. Sometimes with and sometimes without. She will work me to the edge repeatedly and as soon as I tell her I’m at the edge, give me a small push and then stops touching me. She may move to my nipples and twist and pull them both very hard. Sometimes she is able to use timing to extract fluids from my cock by pulling and twisting in time with my nipples. The second technique is walk me past having an orgasm. This is done mostly with light to medium pressure. She’ll keep me on the edge and gradually reduce the amount of stimulus to a level that feels good but I know won’t push me. I’m in tranced in that mental subspace for 20-60 min. The mantras open me to her suggestions. The third technique is edge play into orgasm denial. After edging me several times and getting me completely aroused she will stop and say, “It’s time to go to sleep and you need to obey.” Extremely frustrated, I tell her “I will obey,” and turn over on my side to rub her shoulders and stroke her back. I use multiple layers of touch on her and try to channel the electricity in my body into hers.


Right before she falls asleep she reminds me this is what you need and makes you a better slave. "You want to be a better slave, don’t you?" In all three techniques mantras are applied forcefully. If she has allowed me to leak out, she’ll make me lick it off of her finger. The effect on me has been amazing, frustrating, beautiful and profound. I’m more considerate, I am obedient. I do what I’m told when I’m told. I’m turned on most of the time. I know I’m a service sub. I know I am a submissive to all women.

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