No longer living a lie and double life , now I'm just me ❤️

Who Are You???


I was lost now I'm found

Now I've come up above ground


No longer buried over my head in the quicksand of my deception and lies


My tongue has become my shovel in the messy stable that had become my life


Ready to muck out the pig sty in which I wallowed


For years I swam in the ocean of poop created by my lies , so long I learned to inhale and exhale the sea of shit in which I swam ; like it was oxygen


It locked my heart off from feelings and true love , every time I uttered disinformation and misdirection


My whole life was nothing but a total deception to others and myself , nothing but a false facade


A totalitarian abusive contradiction , everything about me a complex obloquium


Through my life every time my true nature surfaced I was told to man up or made fun of


So I learnt to bury my true self in the shelter of the prison I created within the deepest recesses of my brain


With each passing decade I was being pushed closer to the point of insanity , with ever deeper depths of depression


Locking my soul away from me , always feeling blue and untrue


Then 1 day a lonely caterpillar longing to be transformed and set free spoke from inside of me


Three words stuck on repeat no longer indistinguishably , which a tone so sharp as a dart hitting the right notes of complex simplicity


WHO ARE YOU ???
WHO ARE YOU ???
WHO ARE YOU ???


Until I wrapped myself up in a pink chrysalis spun with the finest threads of truth


Then while inside the time travelling tardis , within the chrysalis , I revisited all my painful memories


The Inevitable realisation then hit me like a ton of bricks even when I was locked in the downward spiral of my darkest days


Tumbling forever deeper down the rabbit hole created by my lies


I finally see they were sprinkled with the stardust of precious golden memories


Now the pain just evaporates into the cosmos , simply burned away now that I've brought them out into the fresh air


Out into the light of day for me to dissect and understand the lessons contained within the misery


Bit by bit I emerge from within the cocoon , itching to , to
just leap into the sky


Instead though I take it slowly while I'm learning to spread my wings


Although I'm being transformed I'm a long way from complete


Life now is so , so , so soft , so sweet , so neat and becoming increasingly complete with each passing day


No longer just wanting to just sleep and dream my life away , living life to the full


Finally the smoke and fog in my brain that clouded my thoughts disappears


So I begin to climb the mountain but I'm no longer held back by the fear of the heights of the climb or the summit


As I ascend my stresses , worries , troubles and blues are blown away with the smoke and the fog


The view is so beautiful the higher I climb , it makes me wanna leap into the heavens before I reach the summit


However as I know my wings aren't yet ready for their long distance flight , I slowly and patiently test them a little more with each passing day


So while I wait to reach the launch pad at the summit , I begin to fathom the complexities of the endless control panels society inserted within me


Patiently I build my life diligently with truth , love and unity , while I wait for my blast off into The Outer limits of Eternity


Rewiring the control panels with the circuitry of love, understanding, unity , peace , truth , equality , diversity and wisdom


With this I take back the controls , I cut the strings no longer a puppet or a muppet


Dancing and prancing to my very own truthful tune
Yippppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I'm FREE
By Asha A Stone 

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