Summer has faded out and the skies have turned to the darkest shade of grey
Winter drawing in, darker nights, less time to see the light of day
Alone I stare about me, looking for a reason or inspiration to push forward
Knowing that my situation leaves me desperate, stuck, even cornered
I must break out, make myself complete, be alive and whole once more
Even though I know I could get hurt just like I have been before
Push through the darkness, onward, force it through, searching for the light
Even though my soul feels like its trapped, lost, in a dark moonless night
Brightness is out there like a beacon, flashing, I feel it trying to find me
Show me the way, guide me towards it, I need it so that I can be free
Free of the pain that sits there dwelling, twisting and hurting me deep
What I wouldn’t give for a full nights rest, but I still can’t sleep
I get through the work day, struggling throughout, it’s a case of survive
Until I can find the exit door break away and escape, barely alive
I am but a mortal, with rational thought, emotions, wounding all of my being
Unable to focus clearly, looking all about me but hardly ever seeing
I have to fight, believe in me because I have people who upon me depend
Play the cards I have been dealt until I reach a conclusion, the bitter end
Am I strong enough to work through? Embrace all this horror and pain?
And arrive out the other side not emotionally void and still be sane?
Or will I become another casualty in a war without weapons of any kind
Could sanity escape as I prostrate myself and slowly loose my mind
No!
I refuse to accept any of this it wasn’t my doing, forced upon me, not my fault
My downward spiral must end, right now, for goodness sake HALT!!!
I will stand tall, at attention, eyes fixed on a distant point, keep my head straight
I will walk tall, head held high, proud of who I am and march forward to accept my fate.
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1:02 pm Saturday, 3rd November, 2012
Hold your head high, keep light in your heart, as despite the darkness you feel surrounds you you have friends here.... we are all waving torches guiding you to the end of the tunnel. Keep faith in yourself and in us as true friends are precious and will be there with you through thick and thin, dark and light and love and laughter. |
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1:10 pm Saturday, 3rd November, 2012
You know, you guys are the best. The comments I get back when I write my poetry and vent on here are so positive it gives me that lift that keeps me moving forward. I am truely blessed to have such brilliant friends. |
