I am sitting here trying my best not to feel sorry for myself as the stress of the last few weeks has caught up with me.
Stress is a funny thing it does not have the same effect on everyone. For me it manifests as acute IBS, for others it has other effects, and some people thrive on it, I used to think I was one of those, I now know differently.
The thing is I cannot mention it to family because it is minor compared to what I have recently found out, that is that my mum has a form of cancer, Myeloma a cancer of the blood. It can be treated but there is no known cure for it as yet, according to myeloma uk the life expectancy is 5-10 years. But my mum is not that old by current reckoning, 74, and until this started earlier this year only looked in her early 60's.
I now have to come to terms with the fact that she is not immortal a hard thing to do, I always knew beforehand that she would always be there, now in a very few years I know that she won't be there and I find this realisation hard to swallow.
I just wish I could kill this stress and get on with making her remaining time happy!
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11:34 am Monday, 29th October, 2012
Hang in there. I was going to like your post but that doesn't seem the right thing to do really. It helps to off load. If you want a bitch and moans feel free to mail me if it helps. This is supposed to be a community I'm there for you. I've had a shit year myself. It will get better |
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9:46 pm Monday, 29th October, 2012
medievalbiker all I can add would be the same as everyone else has put up. My dad went when I was serving my country and it was sudden. I moved heaven and earth to get to the funeral wearing my best uniform and medals but I never got the chance to say goodbye properly and I regret that to this day. Use what time you have wisely make the most of every moment and ensure that the time you have left is happy that way you can look back and smile at the good times. |
