Last night was like any other, i was going to bed on a normal day, sleep still escapes me, I went to bed with my phone in my hand and a podcast that i like to shut my brain off to. The podcast was about long mythical stories, from around the world (I like Scifi, so ya). Fell asleep around 5 AM. Did not have a dream at that time. just a shallow sleep as usual. I woke up at around 2 in the morning, just to look at the time. Listened to some more podcasts and then slept, this time as i did not have the previous day on my mind, i just gave way to sleep very easily and went into deep REM sleep.
Im a little younger about the age of finishing 12th. I'm sitting in a room with some trunks, made of wood, and some things just kept unwrapped, as if we had just moved in. It somehow feels like so, dont know the place. Now, i do hear people outside talking, but everyone is as indifferent to my existence as they were at that time, so i was still disheartened. But a girl soon entered the room and i did not know her, somehow she felt like a the new neighbour. Greeted her with a "hi" but did not expect her to respond back as i knew i would not interest her. But contrary to that, she did notice. Ok we started to chat but she kept herself busy with the things that were kept there. She questioned about a lot of things and i was actually chatting a lot. I dont know why but she was taking a lot of interest in my explanations or ramblings. After sometime she came and sat in front of me and started to listen very keenly. I really did not pay any attention as i just kept on talking in length about a lot of things on hand, i was liking the way the words were just flowing out of me without even knowing about it. I felt i was really focused on speaking. After some time had passed, out of nowhere just places her face in front of mine and places a kiss on my lips. Its the first time, im flushed because of a kiss. Felt amazing, but it was the first time, i actually felt the kiss, and it felt so real. I did kiss her back. But then i raked my brain together and kind of ran away. I did not know what to think? I had not even looked at her till now, just talking my head off (dreams amiright?).
I did not talk to her for the day, but still kept looking at her sideways, and she was very flirtatious. Now i do remember her. Brown eyes, bob cut hair, shirt and 3/4ths, chappals and the best attraction, here specks.
She kept on smiling back at me as i used to see her. After sometime, she pulled me into a room, and we were alone and still did not speak. I asked here what was the point of all of this. She still said nothing, just looked into my eyes, bit her lip, and you know the way a girl looks at you when she likes you, she looked at me like that, and i woke up.
I was not horny at all, i was feeling something else. Not love please, that has been bludgeoned to the ground by cinema. I felt accepted the way i was. I felt liked by someone, like someone did accept me. till now i am carrying just that feeling of acceptance. It has somehow filled a void within. Had to be a girl, but somehow not sexual, just acceptance and no expectation.
Hi, Long conversations, Netflix and ordering out are my favourite thing to do
