As a man who always identified as a woman,it was difficult growing up.people of a certain age will remember what it was like.its hard to understand now but even being gay was once illegal.
When I realised that I felt different than most boys it was hard to deal with.who could I tell?
In those days I remember men dressing as women was regarded as a perversion.
Certainly,anyone who crossdressed was thought to be gay.
So,telling anybody that,actually you want to be a girl just wasn't an option
I felt so guilty,"borrowing" my mum's panties and tights but it made me feel good.everything be I did to feel feminine had to be done in secret.
You have to understand that it was confusing and a source of shame because issues like this were not widely talked about.
As I got older,able to understand more,it became obvious that I should have been female.but I still dressed in secret. I bought lingerie and stockings to make me feel feminine and sexy. I painted my toenails and dreamed of being a woman.but the stigma still existed and I could not bring myself to openly admit to being feminine.
It may be more acceptable now,but I imagine that it is still awkward for a transgender to come out to friends and family.
I live as a woman full time now. I am happy to be this way. I still wear sexy lingerie and stockings.
Be yourself,it will be OK.
