It's been a lifetime affair.

I don't exactly when I first felt the need and the desire to change who I was born to be , to something entirely different .my first memorys of this was when I was very young ,,shortly before my sixth birthday .I had somehow talked the four year old neighbor to change clothes with me .I just remember feeling very happy .a year later I saw a special on female impersonators ,I was immediately struck by there beauty.it was then that I truly began dressing up to satisfy my desires and the sense of oneself .I started sneaking my mom's and sisters clothes to feel like who I wanted to be .who I am .i learned super spy skills to keep my secret ,just that, a secret .with covert operations and black budget.it was hard at times trying to live the life and hiding it from the world .I soon found out that I wasn't the only one ,and that was priceless .I wasn't the only one ,I wasn't alone.i wasn't attracted to boys ,but girls were a source of clothes ,tips and in some cases moral support .later the thoughts of men became not a taboo but of normalcy,and nature. .being considered gay rather than normal in small town America was ruff .so I lived half my life uncover dreaming of meeting someone who under stood .I've met some but not enough .so as you've heard ,Its been a lifetime affair .

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