I think they all start innocently. As a young boy I was often invited to play Doctors & Nurses with my sister's older girlfriends. It always resulted in me being undressed, thoroughly explored and examined and tightly bandaged. The rest you could say is fantasy history!
Looking back the rest of my time growing up consisted of the usual trials and tribulations of experiencing puberty and there was little of note. The usual giggles with mates looking at pictures in glossy sex magazines and the first revelations of what sex actually involved, but never being brave enough to try anything other than the usual kisses and clumsy fumbles with school girlfriends.
My early play experiences with my sister’s friends had clearly influenced my thoughts and those inner secrets frequently returned to excitement at the thought of being at the mercy of mischievous bossy girls. It may just have been part of a typical teenage boy’s growing up, but masturbating and frequent “wet dreams” during the night, seemed to feed my obsessions to be sexually tormented by a beautiful woman. I am sure my mother had noticed the tell-tale marks on my sheets during the obligatory weekend bed change. She must have said something to my father who was told to ask if I was ok and if anything was worrying me whilst also giving me a very knowing wink!
My next recollection of slipping further into the fantasy came several years later. I was in my final year in full time education aged 17 in Upper 6th, and preparing to sit for A levels that summer. I had for some reason thought that I might enjoy being a Vet one day, but without realising it would take a lot of studying and academic application, which wasn’t in me. I should have known from my O-levels that I just wasn’t going to make the grades. Still there I was trying to understand Biology and Chemistry getting nowhere and of course day dreaming of this and that and of course girls. I was now quite a fit, lean young man. I was good at sport and played football as well as being an athlete good at distance running, 1500m and cross-country.
It was a warm afternoon in May that I met Susan. She was one of my sister’s friends from all those years ago. She was visiting her home, which was nearby and called in to see my sister who home for a few says. My sister had said Susan was at Sheffield in the second year of a Post Graduate course studying to become a Doctor. I had thought to myself clearly, those early games had influenced her too!
Sex needs to excite the mind and the body. Looking to push back on a very vanilla dull life to have fun to explore and experiment, whilst not getting too dark.
