After my last blog - where I eagerly spoke of my anticipation of FINALLY losing my virginity, and spoke of my feelings of hopefully finally being able to submit & succumb to the immense feeling of being penetrated, of being passive, and of FINALLY getting cock deep inside my tight virgin arse - I have obviously not yet given any update!!!
I realise that people haven't been furiously checking for updates, in the hope of finally finding out whether sissy had got the fucking I'd been desperate for EVER!!! But before I put you out of your misery, and let you know of my (hopefully) horny cock action, I'd better explain the huge delay in responding!!
My wife has been snooping around massively, almost to the point of staying up as late as me to ensure I'm not looking at porn, betting on line, or 'trying to get sex'. Maybe that's my paranioa - or the fact that's EXACTLY what I've been up to???!!! And... I have REALLY tried again with the wife, to get to bed early, to try to seduce her, and instigate sexy shenanigans in the bedroom (all to no avail!); AND even tried to talk openly about why she feels we have no sexual relationship; what her desires/fantasies are; what I can do more to get us more sexual/snsual/tactile AND even start talking openly about my sexual desires (though, obviously not all of them!). Yet..... nothing. Let's say there ARE some deep reasons for this, and it IS complicated but... the frustration of it just gets worse and worse. Combine that with a long-deeply hidden desire to cross-dress, AND a constant curiousness of what it would be like to be with another man and I REALLY am ready to explode!!!! AND... the inability to get on line, to get in the chat-rooms, politley begging for sex or for any action, and sending out the (hopefully) sexy photos of me in my basque makes it even harder to get any action.
So, back to my last blog - at the time I was planning to have potentially 2 hot meets, in the hope that at least one would end up with my FINALLY losing the virgin tag. But, and it will come as no surprise, it ended with none. Well, not me feeling cock slide into my arse, of feeling that (hopefully) amazing sensation of it sliding deeper and deeper, of me getting used to the sensation, and then enjoying it more and more until I was frantically riding their cock to an orgasmic explosion of cum!!! In fact it left with me no closer really on my quest for anal fun, although it WAS horny. Well one of them was!
My 1st meet was a complete blow-out with a late last minute text saying they were on-call & could not make it. The text came about 45 mins before I was due to meet and - having spent the week arranging what I'd wear; how I'd get it on under my clothes; my excuses for going out twice in a weekend; completing my anal stretching excercises so that I could manage to take their cock; and having ACTUALLY left the house - I was absolutely frustrated as hell. That evening I had a long relaxing bath, and then probed my arse deeper and deeper with first my fingers and then my butt-plug. My wife was out for while so I had about 60 mins of it deep in me whilst I got ready in my new outfit. I'd bought a new lacy suspender belt and silky black stockings, and sensuously lacy knickers, and had managed to get them on in a quiet moment whilst she was out. I took out the buttplug & cleaned myself thoroughly, and although horny as hell and desperate to cum I ignored the urgent desire to wank & to cum thinking I'd love to save a nice heavy load for my meet - assuming I'd at least get a gorgeous nice blow job! I put on my jeans over my sexy underwear, and said goodbye to my wife - horny in the thought that a) I was wearing sexy underwear whilst getting a good-night snog; b) my arse was suitably stretched so I WOULD be able to go through out with it; and c) I was going to FINALLY get a bloody good fucking. I was on my way to their house when I got a phone call from them explianing they had a call from work, and had to go into sort out an issue. Initially they felt it would not be toooo long, so I said I'd pop in to town & have a drink. Although I'd been out with lingerie under my jeans before, I'd never done it in the evening - and I was so scared of bumping into someone from work, them somehow seeing tell-tale sign or VLL (visible lingerie line!!!) under my trousers, or a wardrobe malfunction where my stockings fall down; revealing to all my mates/work colleagues that I'm a closet sissy-cross-dresser-desperate-for-cock!!! BUT at the same time being out in public, in close proximity to people I know, was a huge turn on. Yet this soon come to a crashing end when I got the call saying they were busy all night. I was sooooo fucking frustrated and thought of who I knew or where I could go - and quickly remembered a crusing site I'd read about in Stanstead Abbots.
I drove there and parked up in the car park and walked to the woods where I'd heard there was sometimes some good action - and waited around for about 15 mins. Soon, I saw a car pull up & someone get out. I was kind of trapped as didn't know what to do - it was obvious what I was after, but hoped that I didn't know them or that it wasn't the police. Luckily it was neither!!! They walked up to me and smiled, knowing what we both wanted, and said that they knew a quiet spot further into the woods. I followed them, and asked what they were after and they replied that they wanted me to suck them off & that they'd do me too if I was any good!!! I said that I'd love for them to take my anal virginity, and that I was desperate to feel them deep inside me - but they said (shockingly) that they weren't after anal, just a good blow job. I sort of (sadly!!!) begged them to - imploring them to fuck my tight virgin arse - but they were clear that they didn't like anal and that 'they weren't gay'! I didn't want to push it, or to lose out on at least another moutful of cum, so followed them quietly into the woods. Very soon I had unzipped their trousers, and had their semi-erect cock out of their jeans - it was a good 8+", thick, and circumised. In preparation for my hoped meets I'd studiously watched various instructional on 'how to give a good blow job' video on Various sites, and was prepared to give them the best blow job of their lives (or at least, the best I'd ever given!). Therefore I got down on my knees and I gently caressed the tip of their cock with my tongue, licking around and around whilst wanking their cocK gently. I slowly licked the cock up and down, repeating this until I'd got lots of saliva around the tip of their cock and then slowly stopped at the top, and held my lips gently over the tip - then slowly moved my mouth up & down, taking more and more in until I'd managed to get deep down so that it was deep in my throat. I savoured the feeling of the erect and thick cock deep in my throat, and tried to look up at them to see if they were at least enjoying it! I slowly brought my mouth back to the top, and again and again moved it up and down from the tip to the base. They obviously liked their cock deep down my throat and soon had their hands at the back of my head, and face fucked me deeped and deeper in my throat. I was soon gagging on their cock, and the gagging sounds obviously turned them on even more as they seemed to enjoy my gagging!!! I deliberately tried to make some more gagging sounds, although to be honest their big cock was by now making me want to gag !! So I brought my mouth to the tip of their cock again to get some air, and licked their cock all the way down to their balls. I'd never really so far sucked on balls properly, so took one in my mouth and gently hummed - and then managed to get the other in my mouth; all the while whilst wanking them off. The moan of delight said that they WERE enjoying it, but they was quite quickly asking me to suck them off some more. I teasingly licked the cock from their balls to the tip of their cock, all the while holding their erect cock direct towards me with both my hands. I licked it up and down, and then around the tip of their cock - and then again moved my mouth slowly down their cock; trying to go down in a circular movement (whiilst still flicking out my tongue to caress the cock some more). I moved my mouth up and down, getting faster and faster, whilst gently caressing their balls. I was desperately trying to remember all the techniques from the sexy instructional videos, so that I was good enough to at least get a wank in return, but it was pretty much a blur of sucking, wanking, caressing their balls, and then a bit more face-fucking... until I could sense that they would soon be cumming. In fact their huge gush of cum almost caught me by surprise, and I almost gagged on it - but managed to pretty much swallow every drop. A bit did shoot out down the side of my mouth, but I hornily wiped my face with my fingers and licked my glistening fingers clean. Once I'd savoured every drop of their cum, I took their still erect cock slowly out of my mouth and licked it clean some more. I looked into their eyes, and hoped I'd done a good job as I was as horny as hell. I asked urgently whether I deserved a blowjob in return, and they said that "I'd do" - I didn't need to be told twice, and quickly dropped my trousers - to reveal my hard, erect, desperate cock glistening with pre-cum, bulging out of my lacy knickers - with my long legs sexily (in my mind at least) in stockings & suspenders. They said they loved the outfit, and quickly got down on their knees, and expertly started sucking my cock all the while caressing my stockinged legs and inner thighs with their hands and fingers. After a while they aggressively took hold of my arse cheeks and started kneeding my arse all the while sucking my cock, and then started rubbing their fingers over my arse crack - teasingly making me think they'd at least finger fuck me. I begged them to finger me, but they just pulled my knickers down more and caressed their fingers over my hole. I got the sense that they were intrigued or interested in fingering me, but no mater how hard I asked them to they wouldn't drive their fingers deep inside me; but the feeling of them teasing my hole, and caressing their wet fingers over my anus was amazing. The horniness of giving another good blowjob, being dressed in my lingerie in some seedy woodland, and getting an amazingly good blowjob whilst having my arse caressed meant I was soon cumming. The feeling of ecstasy in the pit of my stomach was one of the greatest orgasms I have had for AGES, and it felt like every ounce of muscle and nerve-ending pulsated in one huge body-orgasm!!! Unfortunately, when I asked whether they'd changed their mind and would give me a good fucking, they said no but that "it'd been fun"!!! I could tell that they were still up for some more fun, and I said that I was a virgin desperate to feel cock inside me, but they were unfortunately soon quickly off.
Although I'd had a HUGE mouthful of cum, and an amazing blowjob, I was desperate for more. So I stayed there for another 5-10 mins wanking myself in just my lingerie, in the hope someone might spot me & want to fuck me. However no-one appeared. :-( Stupidly I panicked that if I came home with stockings & suspenders, and lacy knickers on, then she would find them or spot them - so I took them off, and hid them in the bushes and went home. When I got in my wife was asleep on the sofa so I quickly went upstairs & cleaned myself off, and came down to conversations on how my night had been. I DID feel bad on the deceipt and lies, but in truth I had enjoyed my night so much it was worth it - even if I didn't get to feelcock slide deeper and deeper into my tight virgin hole. I hoped that my next meet would FINALLY give me what I'd wanted and cherished for so long in my life, thinking that if my whole body exploded in orgasm with a blow-job how amazing it would be if my next orgasm was brought on by being the best anal fucking any sissy-CD-virgin had ever had. BUT..... my next blog (if I ever get time on her for long enought to type one up) will say that AGAIN the next meet didn't quite go according to plan. An amazing night, some new experiences, yet more oral & tasting of glorious cum BUT no anal!!!!! What do I need to do to FINALLY get the cock that I deserve / fantasise about / desire / and NEED SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BADDDDDD???????
