Our Exhibitionism & Voyeurism Intentions

Exhibitionism and voyeurism go hand in hand. Exhibitionism is the urge to expose one’s genitals to an unsuspecting person, while voyeurism is the urge to observe an unsuspecting person who is naked, disrobing or engaging in sexual activities. You can be both i.e an exhibitionist and a voyeur.

We didn't actually say those words out loud in open. You see, our addiction has nothing to do with drugs or alcohol, although it can be as potentially career damaging as battling either of those demons. That's why we came here hoping to connect with really good people about our intentions. We listened to people tell stories online about their first encounter. We thought this might begin for us here and we would also share the same to everyone.

We knew, we are hooked from the very first time. We stood naked in a place where we wasn't supposed to be naked and felt that strange mixture of dread, excitement, fear, embarrassment, and arousal coursing through our body. We still remember vividly the first time, we felt the gentle swaying of of our bodies, as we walked across the dew-covered grass with the cool night air caressing our bare skin. Looking back now at those first tentative steps into public exhibitionism they were really quite tame, but that's the way addictions start, don't they? You get a little taste and want more and more.

We obviously understood back then that there were potential consequences involved in this encounter, but does any of us really understand the meaning of risk? Even though we knew it would be humiliating if we got caught, that was part of the excitement. Many of life's greatest thrills involve a delicate dance on the ledge between pleasure and pain.

So here we are now, on the threshold of a pleasant experience that might be ruined if our extracurricular activities ever come to light, and we still dancing on that ledge and don't know how to stop. We are torn between our desire to keep going and to keep experiencing that thrill over and over again, even with fear of what might eventually happen if we do.

We would have tried more socially acceptable forms of satisfying our public fantasies by going to nude beaches and nudist resorts, but those had proven to be very unsatisfying. We realized after a while that, it wasn't enough to merely be nude in public; it had to be in a setting where nudity was not allowed or expected. It was the thrill of being seen, being caught, being humiliated, that were fueling our addiction. And as we sat quietly listening to others talk about their struggles to overcome their own addictions, we found our mind drifting and we began reliving those first tentative steps.

It all started back then, but do we succeed or succumb depends on how things pan out. We just imagined some couples would stand up, come to us and allow us to watch, while making fun together. We were also fantasizing about how they would strip off all their clothes. We are planning to embrace our bonding of watching others, as this kicks in more juices, than others.😈

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