I am someone who has suffered from anxiety and depression for many years often intensiveifed by the breakdown of my relationships with partners. The most recent breakdown left me feeling more isolated than ever before and there was no way to bring myself back to the world. So I did what until very recently was a no go for men in my area in particular. I asked for help.
Now I won't say that it fixed everything overnight,it took me so long to just to get myself to a place to stop comparing myself to everyone around me. I was maintaining a character nothing more.
I needed to find out what I like and how I can meet my own needs. ( This is where the butt stuff comes into play, honestly I didn't forget) I had ideas of what I liked in the bedroom with a partner but I knew very little about how to get myself into the zone.
So after a few days of let's call it research and development. I ordered some things to try for myself. A small paddle, a bullet vibe, a prostate massager, plug and of course lube.
When they arrived my anxiety rushed back what if someone else found them, if I like the feeling of something being inside me was that wrong.
The simple answer is NO it is not wrong.
I know know that I am able to enjoy my body and mind. And if I want to walk the dog whilst wearing a plug or use something bigger to get myself off then I will. I know other people may have issues with it but maybe as the old saying goes they can "go fuck themselves" then they might understand better.
Loving you is not impossible just not always as easy as you hope.
