the door opens i have only left a low light on in the room ..........i hear your footsteps coming closer can feel your breathing as you inspect me from behind .......running your hands over my ass gently stroking ..inspecting me from head to toe making me shuffle nervously in case you find something that displeases you ........ pushing my link deeper into my ass as you stand behind me .......i hear your voice quiet but strong .."lovely".......i wonder whats on your mind now ...............if you hadn't already made plans would you do as before and bend me over the bed and take me from behind........were you wishing now you had time to take me for yourself..i dont say a word as you take my arms and put them behind my back ........crossing them at my wrists pushing my elbows in closer together ....i hear velcro undoing and know you are about to render me totally helpless for what ever lies ahead.....i feel the rough material of the restraints wrapped round my hands and arms secured in place and then wrapped around my arms again then crossed over and tied and secured again making it impossible for me to free them ..........im still stood with you behind me...... not once have you stood in front of me ............very reminiscent of that first night we met ...the fear the anticipation ...the difference is now i know who my teacher is who my lover is who my tormentor is ..........and who my master is .......i dont need to see you before me.......... not like the urgency i felt to see you on that first night ...........as you place a mask over my eyes and it goes semi dark i put all my trust in you now........... relying on you to keep me safe ..and knowing without a shadow of a doubt you will...i tense slightly as you put something over my head ......fashioned as a hood ........ totally obliterating any light i could see ..outwardly i seem calm but inwardly i am terrified ..if you had any idea how close i am to freaking out would you release me ......im not sure you are aware that i hate to feel confined ...not by restraints but by feeling shut in and the total darkness im experiencing now is causing me to feel shut in .......i am having to breathe very deeply to calm myself telling myself silently you trust him he won't hurt you .......fighting with my inner fears convincing myself it will all be alright ...i wasn't sure i could put into words just how i felt at this point .................you are still in the room but i feel so alone .....my insides churn like never before .............
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6:46 pm Friday, 25th January, 2013
Trust is earned ;) xx |
after over half a year of having this profile and due to sir leaving the uk i have had to say a fond but sad goodbye to him and all this profile relates to UPDATE 130309
