An introduction from a cross-dressing switch

Hello, I'm Caron, a cross dresser since my teens and a sissy since my 20s. Very straight, and firmly in the closet in real life, but I love online connections and discussing all those things 'good' gurls aren't supposed to. I'm also a switch and have involved day dreams that cover many things, but more of that later.

I was planning on revealing some of my fantasies in future blogs, but for now a little about me.

A cross dresser at least since my early teens, though I have distinct memories of thoughts and desires from before my teens too. Rightly or wrongly I started like many with my mum's things, until I grew a size too large. University was a hiatus but the desires never waned. Then a move down to London for my first job and the opportunities started to arise to let Caron grow a little, but only in the solitude behind my closed bedroom door.

I quickly discovered the 'Transformations' shop next to Euston Station and started to buy my own things. My first bra - a black lacy one. My first night gown - deep purple ankle length nylon. And my first dress - a burgundy red one in a heavy slinky material. In the pre-internet 80s and 90s information and resources were miniscule compared to today. Acceptance was a far cry from today’s more enlightened times too.

There were some magazines of course, though often it was pot luck on the quality or even subject. They did occasionally provide a tantalising glimpse of the world of BDSM and a dormant interest that went back to my earliest memories was sparked once again. I also discovered the sissy look via an advert for one of the 'Transformations' change aways. The ultra-feminine pink, frills and ruffles jumped to the top place in my desires alongside elegant sheer blouses and long skirts.

The next turning point was the middle 90s and my purchase of a PC and an internet connection. I moved back to the North West and my career developed. A double edge sword as fear of the effect exposing my activities and desires would have kept me even more closeted away. Online I mainly lurked, exploring and consuming but rarely reaching out. Sissy outfits (and images) became a firm favourite together with my long-standing favourite of the smart and elegant office look. With online access to a growing level of information and images I discovered BDSM, or more accurately Bondage and Domination. I discovered I was a switch, almost equally happy contemplating commanding, (as a CD or a man) or being helpless, (mainly as a CD or sissy.)

By the later 2000s I was becoming more adventurous online if not in real life. Cross dresser and sissy sites, Flickr, Fet Life and some stories on Literotica. Ebay and then Amazon provided easy access to conventional and rather more exciting outfits and lingerie.

The trend continues and here I am looking to meet new people for online fun and discussion. If you are too then feel free to get in touch.

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