Another (hopefully great?!) blowjob given - but still NO anal!!!

The sexy liaison I had in my last blog entry was at least 3 months ago now, and although I've since had some GREAT chats on line, some telephone sex, and of course loads of solitary wanks reliving the horny experience I am no closer in my constant quest for anal sex! In fact I've had 3 failed promises of an actual meet, that never materialised (they never do!) that left me EVEN more frustrated an desperate for cock - whereby I had to make an elaborate excuse in the evening to escape from the wife for a while, saying I had to go back into work; get sneakily dressed at home in my lingerie of lacy knickers, basque & stockings,under my jeans - all the while knowing my wife could maybe hear me pulling up stockings?, or come into the bathroom finding me in sexy lingerie; then travel to the agreed meet of a layby/pub/secluded woods only to wait nervously without anyone showing up; only to receive an apologetic e-mail saying they'd 'had an emergency'. The frustration of constantly needing & desiring anal sex has just grown and grown, and is even worse because on my last meet when I ACTUALLY had the chance of getting some, but couldn't actually get the cock in me!!!! As soon as the wife is asleep, or if I sneak home at lunchtime, I am on line checking emails in the hope that some stud/couple/horny CD/desperate male can accomodate for a short while & will give me EVERYTHING that I desire.

BUT...... no, each time I am let down!!! Lots of chats, nice compliments, and advice on how to take a nice erect, firm, throbbing fleshy pole of hard cock. Loads of advice on the best sexual positions to be able to take a cock of any size, and how best to ride it & give them the time of their lives!!! Or how best to savour the moment, to relax so that I can cum by just having a cock inside me, or the amazing excitement to see their cum face. One darling man gave me a very graphic (& very VERY horny details) of their first time, and how they were lying on their back with their legs held up by the man so that they could be easily penetrated. They said that they braced themselves, knowing that it may be uncomfortable - but seeing the mans face of ecstasy as they slowly slipped into their tight virgin anus made it all ok! Having a calm & relaxed atmosphere, with no pressure, rushing or fear of getting caught made it all the easier, and said that feeling an erect cock slide in & out of them, and to feel it actually deep inside them, was far more horny and intense than any dildo. As the horny fucking continued, they also said that looking into the persons face as they approached orgasm was the greatest feeling ever in the world - knowing that they would be soon cumming in them, to passively feel another mans ecstasy explode deep in them was the best ever feeling that they've cherished for the rest of their lives.

AND in that moment they'd explained how I felt I needed to be for sooooooooo long - to be passive; to be penetrated; and to submit to another persons manliness. That feeling of anticipation as I will relax feeling cock against the outside of my hopefully lubed & relaxed arse, knowing that my virginity will soon be taken, and to then allow it to go further - to feel it go deeper and deeper (& hopefully deeper!!!) is what I desperately need! To give myself totally to another man, and to submit to them in all the sexual positions that they want me in will I think be amazing! And the person who explained it so hornily, clearly, succinctly, and emotionally made me realise that it IS what I want more than anything else in the world.


Soooooooooo...... in another moment of sheer-minded determination I said to myself I would take a half day off work; visit as many cottages as I knew about or had heard they'd been good cock action; and actually fucking MAKE THIS HAPPEN!!!! So this time I went dressed under my jeans, wearing my lucky knickers and sexy stockings and suspenders that I'd worn last time, and went prepared with lots of lube. When I got there I dropped my trousers and quickly fingered myself - getting one, then 2, and 3 fingers inside me. I tried to finger fuck myself in the hope that someone would turn up & be able to replace my probing fingers with a gorgeous cock, hoping that I'd loosened up enough to take a hard erect dick. But after lots of fingering & wanking it was clear that this was never going to happen. I was both horny & frustrated & desperate to cum, but thought a lonely solitary wank in an empty toilet was far too sad!, even if I was dressed in my lingerie. So I decided to go into town & come back later. Just as I was washing my hands a young male came in an gave me a knowing look, as if to say 'I know what you're doing in here' and then went into the cubicle. As they did so, they looked over at me & beckoned me over to them with gorgeous 'fuck me now' eyes!! I didn't want to ask them outright what they wanted, just in case they were NOT after a desperately horny cross-dresser desperate for cock, so went into the cubicle next to them. I could hear them sniffing - a code for this toilet apparently - and then saw a piece of paper put on the floor. I picked it up, and read their horny note as it said that they were a virgin at this, that they were bicurious & engaged but were desperate to suck cock one time before they were married! I quickly poked my head over the top of their cubicle to see them wanking a nice erect 8" cock, that was quite thick but circumcised. I said that I was desperate to suck cock to, and that I'd only done it a few times before and they said it was what they wanted more than anything in the world; that they needed to kow what it was like to feel cum gush into their mouth.

I didn't want to disapoint them, so suggested they came into my cubicle - with no time at all, they had unzipped my trousers to reveal my lacy knickers, stockings & suspenders. They got down on their knees and gently caressed my legs up and down, enjoying the feeling of the satin against their soft hands and then gently rubbed my throbbing cock through mu knickers. They then started to kiss my cock through my knickers, and then quickly popped it out & wanked me until I was fully erect (though I was pretty much there already, having spent the previous 15 mins fingering & wanking). They then gently licked my cock from the tip to the base and back up again, licking & wanking trying to tease me without yet sucking. They then finally placed the tip of my cock in their mouth and slowly moved their mouth down until I was deep in their mouth - they held me their, deep in their mouth & considering his was their first time, it felt amazing. They were then trying to suck my cock in a various ways, trying to find a way that felt good for me & comfortable for them, trying differnt techniques. They were soon trying to deep throat me, but I said I wanted them to lick & suck the tip of my penis like they were before - so they continued, whilst at the same time massaging my balls and gently caressing my arse. After about 5 mins they were begging me to cum, as they wanked me faster and faster whilst still licking the tip of my cock & sucking me off. I tapped them on the head and said I was cumming, and they looked up at me as I filled their mouth with loads of horny cum. They swallowed, and I asked how it was to lose their oral virginity - they said that they'd loved it, and it was all that they'd thought about for ages!

It was my turn now I said and said I wanted to suck them until they were hard and erect, and then wanted them to fuck my tight virgin arse. However, they said they'd never done anal before and wasn't sure. I tried begging with them, saying I'd taken their oral virginity by letting them expertly suck my cock so that it was only fair thay they took my anal virginity - but they said that they were engaged, and somehow fucking arse seemed a lot worse than a quick blowjob!!!! Whilst I didn't quite get their logic, they said that they wanted me to suck them off & to do it quickly as they were nervous about getting caught. As it was their first time, and I knew how guilty I felt after mine, I thought I'd better do it before they changed their minds.

So I was quickly down on my knees and had their cock in my mouth. I licked the top of the cock, caressing the tip around and around trying to tease them in the same way that they'd teased me, but then finally moved my mouth around and around their cock taking it deeper and deeper - almost immediately they had my head, and was pushing my head deep down over their cock & then had hold of my head whilst they were fucking my mouth. I didn't mind, and tried not to gag too much!!!! The feeling of having them just fuck my mouth, whilst I massaged their balls was great and it was clear that they would very soon be cumming. I loved the dominance that this young man had, as they fucked my mouth & could tell that this was what he liked his girlfriend to do! I think the horniess of them tasting my cum, and hopefully of seeing my sexy body in it's sexy lingerie meant that they could hold on no more - and they looked me in the eyes as if to say 'I'm cumming' and then their whole body kinda jerked as they exploded loads and loads of cum into my mouth. This was clerly the most I'd ever taken, and I was soon struggling to swallow it all, as they seemed to just cum and cum and cum and cum! - which ended with a small bit escaping and sliding down my chin. I wiped it with my fingers, and then sucked them off savouring the very last drop of their cum, and then slowly kissed their cock as if to say thank you & gave it one last suck just to make sure I'd got every last drop of cum. They then very quickly made their excuses and left the cubicle and rushed off. I know how I felt on my fist time, a mixture of horniness, pleasure that I'd got to taste cum, but also nervousness & shame about the sneakinga round and could understand them just rushing off so quickly.

I sat there about another 10 mins hoping that another person would come in, so that maybe I could actually get to feel cock deep in my arse. But knew that it was unlikely after 3 months of no cock action, that I'd be lucky enough to get 2 in one day!!! So I re-adjusted my stockings and suspenders, pulled up my lacy knickers and jeans and left. Whilst I didn't get anal sex, and am no closer, I HAVE again got to suck cock & to savour & taste cum. I am by no means an expert cock sucker, having only done it now 3 times now and am by no means a concvincing cross-dresser, having only ever worn lingerie!!! But feel that after every meet so far I have got better and better at sucking cock. BUT I'm sure if you are reading this and horny at the thought of me perhaps sucking your cock, then you could be the judge as to whether I'm any good or not? Hopefully after I've (exprtly??!!!) sucked you cock & savoured the taste of your cum, and perhaps after you've returned the compliment and sucked me dry, we could take things further and you could help me turn my ever growing anal fantasy into reality?

I'm fed up with quick dirty liaisons in seedy toilets (as horny as they are) and am desperate to take my time in a nice, relaxed & horny surroundings where I can finally know what it feels like to feel cock slide in my tight virgin arse, and to have it pushed deeper and deeper in me. Maybe you live local in Hertfordshire, or in London (with enough notice I can take the day off work & travel to London for a daytime meet), and can accomodate for a few hours??? Maybe you are an expert fucker, who knows how to teach, guide, treat, and direct a nervous sissy virgin like me, and who can expertly penertrate me until I am finally riding you & you are fucking me senseless? Or are perhaps you are a nervous newbie who wants to expirement and try new things,and wants to meet with me so we can explore each others bodies until we've fulfilled all our known fantasies and maybe thought of a load more??? Perhaps you could be reading this now thinking, fuck it I'm going to make this happen - I'm going to contact sissy and be the person they've been looking for all this time; I'm going to slowly undress me until I'm in just my lacy basque and stockings; and will then give me the best fucking that I've ever EVER fantasised about!!!! Lets hope so!!!

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