Didn't now I was signing up for this and I am now in a bigger mess than before. i thought that trying out to have sex with another man would be fun because as the saying goes " Let be friends with benefits. That sounded really good to me at first. Gee what harm can it bring up if you are just making new friends and then there is that additional benefit factor. The sex of course was great. You get your cock sucked wow that was really great with out even bribing him just to convince my wife I have to bribe her to even suck on it for a minute or two never even got it completed. Although with guys man they really devour your cock up for good and the do it or so long I thought I was going to collapse one time when I tried so hard not to cumm inside this guys mouth. He was sucking on my cock for almost an hour and I was about to burt and didn't know if I should let it go while my cock was inside his mouth but not tell him that I have cummed inside it. So I just held on to it with all of these different thought going inside my mind. Thought like the first time I ever had an ejaculation. I remember how wonderful that was when that white stuff just squirted out of my little penis and it splatered on my face like someone just spit at me. That was the great part about being bi-sexual, you get to fulfill certain fantasies that was forbidden before or at least you were told were forbidden by the Creator of the Creator of the Universe. Although I always wondered if he really created me then why didn't he design me not to be attracted to these forbidden stuff that I am beig told would be my ticket to hell. Gee what kind of a Creator is He if he knows that these things are very tempting to us then why were we not designed to repelled by it instead being attracted to it? Did he just creat us to test us and see how far our control of our emotions or our sexual needs to be fulfilled . Why even have those sexual attractions around us if they were all forbidden? Do you people see where I am coming from? How truly complicated life can be even if we try our very best it looks like we were created to fail the demands of society in general. I think that is the keywords here. "The demands of the Society". That is what is screwing everything up. These rules and forbidden stuff were not written or even created by the God who created everything. These rules and forbidden stuff were designed and created by our ruling society. They are the ones who made these rules up for their own benefits. So Fuck the rules and the forbidden stuff. From now on I say let's do what feels right and have fun when we can have fun. Don't ever worry again about guilt. If it feels good then it must be the right thin to do.
