Yeah right, what was I thinking...

Sometimes, despite being a decent (well, I'd like to think) gentleman, I do get wild fantasies of a lifestyle I only get to read about and wonder if it was for real. 

Having spent most of my life on responsibilities and then having a failed marriage anyway, I feel like I missed out on life (or the wild things at least).

I remember a quote, "good girls go to heaven, but bad girls go anywhere they want" or something. And it got me thinking, even in business, not much goes to the nice guys, there has to be some element of being shrewd or "magulang" din. 

[Apologies.Am using the tags "anal sex, clubs, cuckold" randomly bdw, but this is really more on thoughts and whimsy interest. ]

But yeah, perhaps one has to have a dark side too to get some real life 🙂 I read the profiles and the galleries when it was free and contented myself with imagining. For one work sked is crazy and hard to squeeze it in and its rare i get a break here in the Philippines. What little time i have i spend with my anaks and be a good dad.

But sometimes (ok a lot of times) i also think, man, for a few wild hours of un guilty sex with friends. That must be liberating. 

And then of course the fidgeting and thoughts--"they must be porn star level experts and all i know is lick and kiss pussy" as my only trick. And then of course in the profiles I have to put average size (am not sure, i may be smaller than average I imagine all other tools as always bigger and longer). Am not ugly, i know i look okay. Not a great body as nerds sit too much and never work out (yeah i know i should)

And so what do i have to offer besides being discreet and friendly and not being pushy. I mean, yeah I also see some profiles who like brainy people...but am tired of brain work. I just wanna act dumb and ordinary. And I dont like phony mind games just to impress...

So maybe am back to why I dont get traction. But then, there is hope too that other nice folks are the ones who like your profile and if sked permit, perhaps that friendship and new experience will be worth the wait.

And then maybe instead of being a jedi, being a sith is really much more fun?

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