That was how this all started, many years ago in my youth. I had never thought of a man sexually, never even considered myself to be anything other than into women. Then early one morning, during a friend's stag night, it happened. With 'Gary' it felt natural, it felt good and confused me beyond belief. I went on to have a three month affair with him and have met a couple of guys since, but never been able to recapture the total abandon of those first sexual experiences with 'Gary'.
I am still confused, not in my sexual preferences, but confused as to why male bisexuality is still not accepted in the same way as gay relationships or female bisexuality is accepted. Even talking amongst gay friends, bisexuality is seen as not accepting that you are gay. Women in my experience with the exception of 'Helen', do not accept bisexual men and I do not know why. Because of this, I have not 'come out' as a bisexual man. This has left me not feeling able to be who I am and able to express myself sexually, although I prefer long-term loving relationships with women, which also creates problems for a bisexual person.
I would like to hear if I am the only one who feels this way or whether there are others for whom being a bisexual male is almost a curse.
