I think we all come from somewhere where our past has effected us. Sometimes it positively effects us but not always. Truth is that we are all searching for something or someone to feed a hunger we have. Maybe we are searching for even more. Maybe we need, even for a hot moment, for someone to fill a vacant place in our heart.
In my info, I speak of going through a rough time. You are not required to know all the intimate details, but to make a long story short, my heart is broken. Yes, I have certain desires, kinks and sexual needs that are outside what some consider the norm. However, I am more than just sex. I have emotional needs. Romantic needs. Needs and desires to just spend time with another person, looking to have similar needs fulfilled, too. I guess you could say, I seek someone who is as hurt as I am and wants to build some thing off of the pieces we are both left with.
I am really not into hookups but I often consider it could be a good release of momentary pain. Alas, I do not know because I have yet to have a hookup. At times, I think it would be really nice to have a friends with benefits arraignment--someone with similar interests, who can talk about our struggles, hold each other through the heartache and maybe provide some sexual healing. I have friends to talk to but the connection is all wrong for the semi-romantic/warm/sexual nature of which I seek. After a few month on several places, I am not sure what I am searching for even exists.
So I guess what I am doing here is asking for your opinions. Do I keep on searching? I don't just want my needs met, I am totally willing to do what it takes to meet the emotional, romantic and sexual needs of another person. But is she out there? Do any of you feel like this too? Please leave a comment. Thank you.
