Music and musings: Nothing Else Matters

"So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters"

It's undeniable that adulting sucks sometimes because it gets in the way of more important things such as, well, sex. Yes, I'm horny AFRN but trying to sort our schedules while adjusting to the novelty of THIS, can sometimes be a pain in the ass. What amazes me though is the fact that I'm at peace despite my raging hoemones. The dramatic side of me is surprisingly tame. I've always said that I value connection over attention. Channing Tatum can saunter to and fro my block without me giving a flying fuck because I can only think of one person I'd go down and dirty with. (Okay maybe not. But you have to really BE Channing Tatum to get me naked long before you can count to three.) I digress. Anyway, the beauty of new beginnings is in the clean slate you both gave each other. It's like being handed over a fresh piece of paper after going through a page full of messy doodles, notes and write offs. It's exciting to stare at a blank canvas, picturing all the things you'd like to create in your head before you pick up your pen to execute your plans. Your hand may shake in anticipation and nerves, fearful that you'll ruin it before you even began. Careful in every stroke, every curve because you want to handle things better than the previous ones you worked on. Scared at the same time because what if you fuck up and erasures just won't do? You don't want any noticeable marks tainting your new chance to do things right this time.

"Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters"

As an artist, you find affirmation in your audience. You require validation to help you as you struggle with your lines and squibbles. You may even find yourself obsessing over their approval just to give you confidence in your worth. It's normal to doubt. We are, after all, human. But if you have someone steady to turn to, whose opinion you hold in high regard, you learn to soldier on and trust the process. Most importantly, you learn to let go. Of your qualms, excuses, fears, paranoia and inhibitions. You learn that you are capable of trusting someone blindly again just because you have faith in yourself and in your person. And that's as good as it can get in this world full of superficial garbage.

"I never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters"

I have never before grown enthralled with another human being until you. I can easily say that you're the most handsome human being I've ever laid eyes on. Challenges have never been easy peasy not until you assured me that we're doing this steadily. In blind faith I asked for you, in blind trust I stand with you. I may not understand why I feel what I feel but I have accepted that only you can calm the tumultuous storms of doubt that sometimes overpower me. Yet still I sweetly say I got you. Because I know that you got me too. And everything else is inconsequential. Nothing else matters, but me and you.

"Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know"

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