Journey To Breaking Out of My Cocoon

Hello to anyone who's reading this. I have never done this before but here goes. My name is Alana, I'm 21 and just finished a degree. 3 year ago i had a full breakdown and my life changed forever. Ever since i can remember i have been dressing and expressing my female self but, as long as i can remember, i knew i had to keep it secret. I was fairly open about my sexuality but felt my 'crossdressing' and gender identity was something i had to hide. This all changed when i got to university. The freedom and the meeting of people i could be honest meant that Alana, who I had felt was me since birth, exploded out. My then girlfriend, who knew i was bi, couldnt handle me coming out like this which is fair enough but the loss still hurt. However, i pushed forward developing my new life. I kept my male friends in the dark whilst i forged a whole new group of friends who knew me as Alana and I grew confident and happy. As I progressed through Uni i found it harder and harder to keep a secret from some until eventually i was caught out. People talk fair enough so now pretty much everyone in my life knows included my mother whom i told after borrowing one of her tops for a night out and accidentally ripping it. Now that i am freely able to be who I want and meet guys and new friends as Alana, the question of whether i want to take the next step to fully transition is CONSTANTLY on my mind. Everyone i know including my mother thinks its best for me but they arent me and I guess I am here to talk to people, explore and found out! Also any casual hookups would be welcome 😉 !!! Therefore, I fully welcome any girl or otherwise on here who wants to talk or meet up and have some girls nights out or anything. Any advice would be very welcome to. 

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