It started with a simple swipe right...

I am Tash.. I have been in this lifestyle for more than 2 years now. This has been a great adventure that added spice in my life as a woman in her early 20s. I started as a bi curious, kept trying things out until I completely identified the things that I really like. I thought I can share the stages I went through.

Discovery state - I was on this dating app, got bored as I haven't been in any relationship that time for more than a year, and I thought I think it's time to date. To cut the story short, I swiped one of the guys right. Our conversation started with football, then outdoors, then the typical picture sharing. One question caught my attention, have you ever tried to do it with another girl? I got a little bit nervous and curious.

What I thought only exists in porn movies - Few days after the first date, AH website was shown to me and I could not explain how I felt. Coming from a typical monogamous relationship, seeing posts saying they're willing to share their bf/gf or even spouses, and even have it done with many people doing the act made me feel that this maybe is not for me, or it's way beyond what I can stomach. On the other hand, I felt like I can just maybe have a little taste of this world then leave.

My first more than 2 people in bed encounter - I was at work that time and I received a text from the guy I was dating saying he is now with the girl and that after work I will see them both. My stomach had butterflies and I got extremely nervous. When I arrived, the girl was lying on the couch and she stood up to greet me and offered me some drinks. She held my very cold hand and after a short convo, she started kissing me. For some reason, it felt so natural and I could not resist anymore, we just went with it and we even had a girly convo after it in the shower.

We can't stop - After the first meeting, a week after we met a couple. That time I already know that maybe I'm really bisexual as I get really attracted to the girls. I had an awkward stage . I was so naive in what I was doing and did not know if it was appropriate that I was being kissed by her partner, would she feel some type of way, will she be mad if I touch her. At first there's lots of inhibitions but as soon as I got the hang of it, it felt like a norm. After that, we've been continuously meeting single girls, couple and even attended a party. I was so happy knowing that there are many people like us. They are amazing as the word "discretion" is practiced religiously. What happens in the play area, stays in the play area

A partner in crime/guide - Having someone who is experienced and knows the do's and don'ts of the lifestyle helped me become more open-minded and equipped me for my future encounters. Proper communication and trust is really important if you're going to decide to bring your partner to this lifestyle as this is a double-edge sword. What's acceptable for both parties needs to be laid out on the table before going to any plays. 

Proud to be out - Now I am proud to say that I identified myself as bisexual and it's funny cause everyday, I never run out of ideas of things to try. The fun part as well is dressing up, wearing stilletos and feeling sexy that I didn't normally do as I am a very shy and introvert person outside of this lifestyle. 

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