Scared but still yearning

I took my profile down twice from before as I always thought that being straight meant having to turn down a swinger's lifestyle. Being a good person meant that I have to stick to one.

When I first had an account here, I was swamped almost immediately by private messages from men, both those I lusted over and those that were just there for my viewing hearts content. I put it down as I was already feeling that I was being such a slut for having slept with more than what my two hands could count. I've done an unimaginable lesbian encounter, threesome, bondage and such dirty cum swamped sex that even if it always felt good, my super ego still kept calling me back to sainthood.

The second time I turned it down was when I had a boyfriend that I told of this secret to-- instantly, he went berserk and found himself looking for my computer and seeing to it that he deletes it himself. Well so much for him-- his cheating ways caught up with him anyway.

This is the third attempt and I'm not seeking for anything. I'm actually in a loving relationship that lacks so much sex. I know I may be pretty shallow about it-- but I did not lack in telling him how much I wanted it dirty, or frequently, or nastily-- or whatever worldly adjective I can come up with.. he just kept dismissing it.

Now, when you're done reading this, and if you feel that you have no judgement and would help satisfy me, send me a message. If we're both lucky, we can both show each other what 'good time' is.

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