And so, I wonder what category I fall under. Will I be defined as a cross dresser or
transgendered. You see, I have decided
to begin a new journey of the self. It
is a journey whereby I develop a whole new personality that is feminine and
expresses herself through her clothes, jewellery and other accessories.
I have always thought of a cross-dresser as someone who
simply dresses in female clothes so developing and cultivating a new
personality seems to go a lot deeper and falls outside the definition of
cross-dresser. However , transgendered implies
that you are unfortunate enough to be in the wrong body/gender and clearly what
I am proposing to do does not fall within that category. Further , the cross dressing definition does
not fit because it is my female persona that will be responsible for the piercings
and tattoos that I plan to get which will be designed purely to suit my
femininity. Although, I would seriously
consider some form of breast enhancement, that is something I propose to look
into, but I would not consider any further modifications.
I see my feminine persona in complete opposition to my
masculine persona; my female personality is an exhibitionist whilst my
masculine self is clearly not. My feminine
side is also creative and adventurous whilst my masculine side is rational and
pragmatic. So there is clearly a
conflict between the two. This begs the
question as to which personality will be the ascendant one. At the moment it is my masculine one however
the more I developed the female side the more powerful it becomes. And I can predict that there will be changes
in my lifestyle. That I will attract the
prejudice of today's society goes beyond a doubt but I refuse to let that
hinder the development of Hillary (that is my female side). So Hillary at the moment resides in the
shadow of my mind but I do not think that will be a permanent residence.
Alternatively, I may just be heading for the nuthouse!
All comments and feedback gratefully received.
Love Hillary X
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2:22 am Thursday, 22nd December, 2016
Why do you feel the need to label who you are or the journey that you are on? Don't fit in but learn who you are and what you want from your journey then grab whoever and enjoy the experience x |
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11:03 am Thursday, 22nd December, 2016
I know, it is a fault of mine to over analyse everything and then try to compartmentalise it into neat little boxes. It will be a resolution of mine to just go with the flow 😍 |
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12:29 pm Monday, 26th December, 2016
I blush at your words but yes I think you are right. It was a much shorter battle (more a skirmish) than I anticipated but I am happy with the result X |
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5:57 pm Monday, 26th December, 2016
I was not unhappy previously but I am more content now (if that makes sense) and the question of whether to enhance my breasts or not has been on my mind a lot more in the last few days than previously. I think I would love a pair but the fact also scares me for obvious reasons and I am a coward at heart. It would be nice to meet you in the flesh to XXX |
