"Tell me how it is
to love and live and be
no promises knowing
there is only now"
Cynthia Alexander is, hands down, one of the biggest influence in my life when it comes to my musical preference. I still get goosebumps whenever I remember my Conspiracy days. The first time I saw her perform, I had tears in my eyes. Of course, Comfort in your Strangeness is my all time go to song whenever I'm in one of my funks for whatever fucked up reason there is.
I'm all for carpeing the damn diem, however, this annoying circumstance we call life transports me to picture perfect moments of so many nows that lure me back somehow to sanity. Listening to this song always heightens the intensity and lightless of losing myself in nothing and everything all at once. It is a non sequitur of overwhelming gibberish no matter how hard I try to make sense of it. It just is, what it is. The playful bossa rhythm is a direct contrast to the undertones of the lyrics. The subliminal message is brilliantly disguised by the sweet teasing tone that is pure Cynthia Alexander genius. Though the song seems fun at a glance, there is a hint of vulnerability and caution that speaks volumes. No promises, only happiness™ (Yeah, I own that badass phrase lol).
I knew that five day reprieve comes with a steep price. This Friday, I feel like a wilted lettuce sandwiched between two stale bread. The work week was one heluva bumpy ride full of challenges and I haven't had a good night's sleep in days. But you know what makes life bearable? It's when I remember the times I felt alive. No matter how crazy things are, I stop and think of those memories that made a huge impact on my being. And the artificial smile pasted on my face becomes genuine. I feel invincible again as I plow through one meeting after another. I am fueled by the passion coursing through my veins and I know, I'll be okay.
In this time where everything is precariously tethered on the edge of uncertainty, I feel lucky to have something to grasp on to even though it may seem insignificant. But to me, it means a lot. Spread the love y'all. Have a happy weekend :-)
"As we walk away
out the door
welcome back reality
don't forget we smile knowing
there is only now"
