It's been a while sense I've been here on this site. It's been very discouraging not being able to find what I'm looking for here! I've come to this site many times over the years and wrote a few blogs in the past telling my experiences in this lifestyle. I've enjoyed writing them down it was like reliving them in my mind It gets me all worked up and hard just thinking about them.
I continue to come back here because I really don't know where else to go. I have tried vanilla relationships infact just ended one with a women that was way to good for me she was easily an eight and let's be real I'm a 4 at best she made me feel so good about myself giving me praise and telling I was the best. We dated for about 4 months had sex all the time but I know and new from the start I wasn't satisfied but played along. Last week I asked her to take a more dominant roll in our sex life and broke out a few toys like a strap on, cuffs and e stem kit to show what I ment she laughed at me. Didn't mind that but broke up anyways.
My perfect goddess needs to know that she is in charge strong smart creative! I'm an anal slut, cuck, with a small cock, love to be praised but need and lack discipline. Not looking for a pro domme I want a real relationship I'm not a paypig I don't make enough money to be one anyways. I am mostly sexually submissive and love to do what I can to please my goddess orally and want to hand my body over for her entertainment. Out of the bedroom would like good conversations someone to push me in my work someone likes the outdoors and likes the simple things in life. I know my goddess is out there hopefully I'm patient enough to find her!
