I was young and in the throws of puberty, home alone one dayI stole a pair of my sisters panties and putting them on made me so very hard. But afterward I felt so ashamed, and over the years I tried to resist my desires for crossdressing, buying lovely, sensuous female garments to dress up in and masturbate only to become ashamed again and throw them all away. I have always wanted and tried to be open to women I have dated about this but understandably most women quickly lost interest in me. But one gal I admitted my fetish to was so sweet, finding me the perfect panties to wear and then both teasing and complementing me about wearing them.
It has taken me decades to accept and understand that it was never my wanting to be a female but my craving femininity to caress me since I have always been shy around women. Longing to meet an understanding and accepting woman, ones that I know are so special but so rare. And no wearing feminine lingerie for myself when I masturbate does not lesson my yearning for women to dress in
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6:18 pm Friday, 27th May, 2022
I completely understand the joy the ecstacy the thrill of dressing in lingerie and trying to put off as long as I could masturbating and then when I reach finished and after I had lived a little bit of a thrill for that little time in came the shame and I |
