I've been on here (& MANY other sites) on many, MANY, MMMAAAANNNNNYYYYY occasions - and had some horny, sexy, x-rated, cum-soaked fun!!! But in every occasion, after getting closer and closer to fulfilling some more (if not all) of my fantasies I get panicked about the deceit and lies and either throw away my dildo/vibrator/lingerie; shut down all my accounts; or both.
BUT I am ALWAYS back!!! After a very short time I am back on here - a new name, but same old photos & desperation for cock / cross-dressing / couples / open-minded-females / sexy chats / phone sex.... - and just some horny, sexy,explicit, x-rated, excitement. AND I sooooooooooo love the thrill of sneakily logging on to my account to see if I have any e-mails, blog comments, friend requests etc - and I always get braver & braver!!! Initially I'll log on when I KNOW she is asleep; then when she's just gone upstairs; then when she's in the other room; then when she's asleep; and THEN when she's in the room with me watching TV (but with the screen ultra minimised!!!). I love the thrill of being in the chat room, watching a webcam or being in a sexy chat whilst wanking myself - knowing I COULD get caught at any time. There have been soooooooooooooooooo many times where I've almost been caught!!!!
AND here is a great tip for all you men (or women??!!) in a similar situation! Set up an account with an on-line betting/poker firm & ensure you have that screen open also. Try to ensure you win occasionally AND enough to may for a new dress/boots/pair of shoes!!! Then if you do get surprised you can quickly shut down the horny chat & pretend you're trying to win more money to please her (or him!) GENIUS???
And I DO love it. I love the chase, the anticpation of a new meet, or fulfilling a new experience. My first webcam wank with a woman was an amazingly horny experience as was: my first touch of cock, feeling it erect as I wanked it; of my first feel of the fleshy hardness of cock in my mouth; my first taste of cum; my first blowjob in 8+ years; of being rimmed; of rimming; of being fingered; of wearing lingerie; of having a 69er with a sexy cross-dresser; having a 69er with us both in stockings & feeling each others silky legs; of trying AND FAILING anal; of sordid sexy meets in a dirty toilet; sharing sexy photos; horny telephone sex.... I HAVE had some amazingly horny experiences on here.
BUT.... still no closer to anal sex. :-( Still no closer to feeling the tip of a hard-erect cock pressed hard against my tight virgin hole, as I tense and then relax - still no amazing sensation as it slowly slides deeper and deeper; still no horny sensation of having a hard cock deep inside me; of me riding it; of it thrusting harder and harder, and faster and faster; and deeper....faster...deeper.... until I can feel cum gushing inside me. STILL NO FUCKING ANAL SEX
And I want it soooooooooo bad, I NEED it sooooooooooo bad. It truly is EVERYTHING I think of. But..... I know it is sooooooooo wrong. I do love my wife and when we have had sexy fun recently it HAS been amazing - afterwards I have sworn that I do not need stockings, silk, lace or cross-dressing; and nor do I need cock / tits/fanny/arse/or other sexy, horny, naked bodies to play with. But I know I'm lying to myself. I DO NEED IT, and I NEED IT BAD.
So the big question is..........
DO I STAY UNTIL I'VE FULFILLED MY ANAL SEX FANTASY, LOST MY VIRGINITIES, AND PUSHED MY SEXUAL BOUNDARIES - OR, DO I ONCE & FOR ALL QUIT THIS SORDID-SEXY-DOUBLE LIFE, FOCUS ON THE WIFE & ALL THAT I HAVE AND NEVER NEVER NEVER COME BACK????? ANSWERS ON A POSTCARD....!!!
