Different types of lonelieness

I have found with little to occupy me that there seems to be different states of lonlieness. When living on my own yrs back, I was lonely but I was free to go out and meet people and make choices. But now I find myself with a partner that is married to work and celebate due to illness reasons even though they are now fine,I find this very difficult. I work 4 long shifts a week and spend friday, sat,sunday on my own. Sex is a thing of the past as partner is always too tired and after masectomy will not allow me to see her or touch. So this type of lonlieness is hard to deal with,as unlike before I am not free to go meet people or go out in the evenings to enjoy myself. I find this very depressing, though I cannot find it to blame my partner as this was not her fault to get this terrible disease of breast cancer. Yet I find myself in a self made entrapment. Does anyone else come across the variations in lonelieness?

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