I've been interested in girls clothing since before I knew what sex was. I was always slightly jealous at school of the girls wearing pretty (and as we got older, sexy) skirts when all i had to wear was boring grey shorts or long trousers. It fascinated me that they had to straighten the back of the skirt out as they sat down, then sit with their hands in their lap. I used to dream of being able to do the same thing.
Last week myself and the wife were getting intimate. As is sometimes the fashion of bedroom talk (and we were both a bit drunk) she asked what fantasy I'd love to do right at that moment. Before i knew what I was saying I blurted out that I'd love to be dressed as a woman and treated as such. I then ended up confessing that I have clothes that I've bought hidden away from her that I would wear when she wasn't in the house.
I have no desire to become a woman and (at this stage) no desire to go out dressed up, but I've always dreamed of my wife knowing and accepting this part of my life.
Over the next few days we discussed it at length. As we talked she realised her fears were true, that it wasn't just a 'bedroom thing' and ultimately I wanted to be able to sit around the house dressed up.
There were a lot of tears and through this last week she's told me she's in complete turmoil and she can't sleep. She wants this whole thing to just go away but wisely she knows that it won't. Like most wivesSO's who hear this kind of thing she feels that she doesn't have anyone to talk to.
I'm personally overjoyed that I've told her as it's released this massive secret I've hidden from her for the last 11 years. Only problem is, she's now overweighed with this burden trying to understand something I've had 30 years to come to terms with.
I read all these stories about 'my wife fully supports me and even helps me choose clothes'. For me, that would be a dream come true. The amount of times I've supressed my thoughts that 'That's a pretty dress, I'd love to try that on' when we've been out shopping have been too many to mention.
I know you're supposed to give them time to come to terms with it in situations like this but I'm not sure if she will. And it upsets me to see her like this as I love her dearly.
To make matters worse, the urge to crossdress is at an all-time high as I haven't thought about anything else since we first discussed it last week.
I'm desperate to share this part of my life with her, talk to her openly and finally say what I'm thinking but I fear she may end up resenting me for it and falling out of love with me.
She knows I won't (and can't) stop doing it, it's just all down to whether I include her in this part of my life. I'm praying that she comes around to it as it would literally be a dream come true and I would probably love her even more than I do already.
Alternatively if it goes the other way how can anyone possibly be expected to choose between their marriage and their intense urge to wear women's clothes?
As for personal details I'm 5'7", average to muscular build (not great for finding a bra), I also have large feet and hands and you know what they say about that... can't bloody find shoes to fit unless I order off the web!
I've got dark green eyes and an impish smile.
Currently looking for friends and contacts to chat to, possibly even help me get through this make or break period
Seeking CD / Trans
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| Gender | Male |
| Age | 50 |
| Location | UK, England: Berkshire, Reading |
| 🌈 Sexuality | Straight |