Wannabe cuck

I've got this fetish thats driving me mad .. I want to be with a woman that fucks loads of men in front of me .... Im no sissy or sub ... but its actually got so bad that I left my previous relationship ... unhappy , its not the kind of thing you can express mainstream ... ' oh you got beautiful eyes and ... oh yeh ... will you bring five or six guys home and shag them in the bed so i can hear it in the living room ' .... I really want to meet a woman who clicks with that ... I'm a goodlooking , interesting guy and a tornado in the bedroom ....... kitchen ... park ... you name , please someone help me out here ... cause otherwise I'm gonna pop ... thanks