A Bit About Moi... Part 1 (the Personality)
So, if you've made it through the whole 'spot the entry, click the entry, read the profile, click the blog' process, you're probably wondering a bit about me, yes?
Well, I'm a paradox, wrapped in an enigma, wrapped in a puzzle box, really. Almost everything about me has an opposite as well... you might say I'm the most Libra Leo you've ever met.
Let's see... I know they say not to bring this kind of thing up in your first meeting or post, but I prefer to get it out of the way really: I am a survivor. And I don't mean the kind that fights for what she wants. After several years of bullying and multiple toxic relationships, I've been left with a bit of baggage, so if you can handle a gal who might suddenly withdraw into her shell for a while, or who may have a panic attack if a drunk man shouts too loudly around her, then good for you! You've passed the first test!
Alrighty, onto the meaty stuff. I'm a very, very, veeeeery shy person due to all that crap up there, but once you get to know me, boy am I bubbly and chatty. One of the first things I say to people is that if I talk to much, they should just say 'shut up [name]' and I won't take offence, and it's the truth. I can answer a two line message with 5 paragraphs, but that's assuming I don't chicken out or forget to reply in the first place, both of which can happen.
I'm affectionate to a fault, and if you call me Kitten, it not only will have me melt (as long as you're not a stranger, that is), but will be somewhat accurate, as I'm somewhat into pet play. I'm not the type to drink out of a water bowl, but I will curl up at your feet and hug your shins if in the right mood, and nothing makes me happier (and more likely to 'mew' with contentment) as someone stroking my head/ back). Don't think that means I'm a meek kitty, though. I have my claws, and if someone tries to hurt someone that's important to me, I will take them down a peg or two.
I do suffer from chronic illness that would take ages to explain, but suffice to say, it's ME/CFS (it's easier if you check out the definition yourself than try to sit through an explanation here), which makes it hard to get out of the house. Add to that a (very conservative) Dad in his 90s, whom I look after, and my social life is almost entirely online. As a result, when I say I generally prefer a long distance relationship, I actually do mean it, not only because it's less exhausting than trying to coordinate meetups and such, but because it's also easier to get to know a person, as I'm not really the 'one and done' type. I'm into relationships, not hookups, even if I am open to a million different types of things (I'll get to that in another post...).
I'm very submissive, but I do have a backbone. I like having a Master/ Dom, but a gentle one, one who's not afraid to be affectionate when needed, and if you're the protective type, prepare for swooning, because one of the most important things to me is to feel safe. Not necessarily in the 'there's nothing to worry about' sense, because if that was the case, this would definitely not be the right site, right? No, I mean that if I get the vibe from you that if someone were to insult or harm or threaten me in any way that wasn't consensual, you'd be the first to defend me and make me feel like everything was okay again, you've got it nailed. I'm also the type who'll do pretty much anything you ask of me (assuming you're the right person and I trust you), because I'm down to try most things at least once, but if there's something that's a hard limit for me, I'll say so. Try to push me past that, and my trust will be lost, and believe me, that is not easy to regain.
I think that's about it for my personality-ish stuff. I will say that, despite being 37, I definitely don't think like a 37-year-old, so be prepared for a lot of emojis, 'lols', made-up words and chipperness, because I've had a lot of people say I act like I'm in my early 20s, which is about accurate. I'll add more about my interests, and some more... interesting stuff later, but for now, if you've made it this far, congratulations and have a wonderful day/ night!
Carrie (not my real name, but that's a story for another day)
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