I thought I was the only one

jklbus1962

I'm not quite 60 and for my entire life I have been attracted to women for emotional, spiritual and physical connection, and still had a desire for sex with a man. My wife knows my fantasy is two men and her, and the man is for both of us. But I dont' know how to find a guy who isn't more than I need.


Years, in fact decads ago, I had a friend who I'd hang out with, go to the bar with, and do other normal guy stuff with. Once while out drinking, we got our pants off and for a few years, played games. But that has long been over, and it left me wanting a friend I could trust to do guy stuff with and occasionally get naked with, but how do I find that guy?


I've been married for multiple decades and genuinely love my wife, our family and my life with them, and going outside would damage that, so I want a friendship that doesn't arouse suspicion.


I desire men's penises, but I don't want to kiss a man, or have a romantic relationship with one. I suppose that makes me bisexual. I've only had experience with blow jobs and hand jobs, and have always craved a little more. My one friend wasn't open to that and like I said, that ended decades ago.


I thought I was the only "straight guy" with this problem until I ran across a discussion group somewhere. It turns out, my desire for muscular, nude men and their erections plus a sincere attraction to women, and love for my wife, was not uncommon at all. I didn't know.


So now I'm seeking that kind of friendship again. I want to stay married to my lovely wife, and I want to get naked with a friend.


Does anyone know someone like that?

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