The Lions, the Bitch & her Wardrobe - Anything and Everything CD, by Jennainfatuate

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We could all imagine being in this world, stepping outside and not speaking to or seeing anyone, as if society as we knew it had just vanished!

I mean, even if you're more than a cross-dresser who lives exclusively behind closed doors, wouldn't you feel a sense of unrestrained freedom? Okay, some fear too, as you find yourself left all alone - but that’s not the story I share with you today.

Whatever social mask you usually wear, and we all do, surely you would just discard it. Me, I'd do whatever I wanted, and whenever I wanted. I would just walk down the street, hips a swaying under the summer sun, my skin brushed by the scent of my inner woman, with the smell of my favourite fragrance sticking to me tighter than my own shadow - sadly, I can't say that I'm personally that liberated, but as a small conciliation, maybe my own feelings of taboo go a small way to contributing to the euphoria I feel when I think of going down deep into femininity.


Because of that outside world and my own perceptions of it, I'd kept Jenna and all her beautiful things hidden away in her virtual closet, and for a few years - I'd almost convinced myself to forget just how much a part of my persona she was, or better said, is. You know what I mean.


Then in 2020, society, did, suddenly vanish. Even the alpha males were forbidden to go out fighting lions everyday. Like everyone else, it was back to the cage for this cat! Feline, let’s go with that, just sounds more appropriate for a person like me. Strangely, and against the grain, a big part of me was looking forward to it, looking forward to my escape from the mainstream, just dropping off the radar for at least a while - thinking, "no-ones allowed to visit me! And I have to stay home, alone!" Apparently our liberty was being stifled! Bizarre, but I felt a complete of sense of freedom. Well, my mind began working overtime… excited, infatuated about all my suppressed inner feelings. My subconscious seemed to be to be constantly nagging away in my brain, chatting away to me constantly, that cheeky thing!!! I remember and I’ll never forget it, as I passed though one particular shop, my eyes were glued to (I couldn’t stop myself) to the false eye lashes and all the other wonderful feminine things surrounding them. "Maybe now, I could just be what I wanted to be?", was all I could think to myself, daydreaming of experiencing that lush feeling once again.


And it was, as if society as we knew it had just vanished!


It was ironic too, to be so excited ‘bout the the thought of going home alone - cos I can’t say enough how much I crave to be in the company of other humans. So there I was, like someone fighting their way through a fleeing crowd. When everyone was grabbing for a mask, it was my best chance ever to finally tear mine into tiny pieces. Feeling free, finally, to be true to myself, I began to build my new solitary life and welcomed home this almost forgotten, familiar feminine face.


Plenty of online shopping was to follow, and for everything girly!!! I mean, I could sit for hours browsing and choosing my makeup. As for my wardrobe, what was already there is now smothered by lush colours and gorgeous fabrics. As for the shoe rack, say no more. Yum! There’s been a very tasty space invasion! What a pleasure it is to look at my 2020 spring/summer collection. This new way of life has now become my new normal.


And then one night, my attention was gripped by a comment made by a stunning cross-dresser, somewhere else out there amidst the internet space. She was a girl who spoke fondly of a special place, where many identifying as transgender lived a life happy and free, a place where there was as much chit chat as wine bar in central London! I forget her name now, but thank you, whoever you are, for your attention grabbing words were the very thing that brought me here to this website.
To me, this place is kinda like living in a trans-space station, somewhere out there, a world of its own, looking down at mainstream earth, from amidst the glitter filled sky.Here I feel free to walk down the street, hips a swaying under the summer sun, my skin brushed by the scent of my inner woman, with the smell of my favourite fragrance sticking tighter to me than my own shadow! But here, I am not alone.

An' I've been thinking just lately... how great it would be, if you could actually get here just by teetering out the back of your wardrobe.

Much love, Jenna x

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