My Struggles as a crossdresser

8:07 pm Tuesday, 10^th March, 2020

Paula2020

Hi all just a little about my crisscrossing journey, I have been described gender dyshoria  and started experimenting dressing from the age of 7 confused all of my life about who and what I was going through lots of stages thinking I was weird and what people would think of me If I was ever found out that I dressed, have lived with that fear a long long time have brought lots of female apparell over the the years and loved to dress and see myself in the mirror the only times i enjoyed looking into it then later seeing my male self which i have always hated only to time and time again purge the female clothing time and time again, attemted suicide many years ago as the cofusion i couldnt take any more would never go down that path ever again. i have never been out dressed ever but long to do so i have only in the last year come to terms fully that i cannot change who i am and to tell the truth i dont want to anymore im sick of the sad life these problems led me too, and now I have very nice female things that I look at with pride and enjoy having them so much they make me feel good and proud that I have them I have a wife that supports me fully but I still get embarrassed  dressing in front of her even though she tells me not to be but I'm working on that not bothering me so I can finally one day go out dressed as that is something I long to do, I'm told by others that it is life changing to do so and that it will give me peace of mind when I do that and that is what I've always wanted Peace Of Mind, I am at the stage where I'm starting to think stuff those that would judge me as it makes me angry that those people have no idea and must lead a shallow life to judge what makes others happy. I also have most of my life wanted to take full steps to become a female but that is the only thing my wife does not want me to do and I respect her wishes with that because she has been so living and supportive of me I wished I took the steps to do that years ago and that plays on my mind constantly always living with regrett that I never took those steps to become female and it saddens me, anyway I just wanted to tell a little of my story about my struggles in life and I'm sure most of you have been through or are going through those struggles in your life. My heart and my love goes out to you all.  Lots of Love Paula. 

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