Today I feel really wonderful. Yesterday I met new friends in a pub. I had a red wine followed by lime and lemonade. The lady had two glasses of red wine and her partner lime and tonic twice. Chatting for nearly 4 hours and at points our conversation changed unexpectedly. I learnt that I was very rude! That was a lesson I never expected to have to take. They (the couple) were right. I have never felt so embarrassed but I was so pleased that they were true friends and could tell me how rude I was at one point. I went home happy and yet sad that I could have been seen to have be so uncaring and uncaring and so rude!
Today I made a commitment to a man with whom I am in love with. We agreed a NSA open relationship. Though for me I would be happy with him alone. That has somewhat changed all things in a split of a second. I really love this guy although he can not give me any commitment at all. I agree to accept him on his terms which means we have a NSA agreement and nothing more than that.
For that reason I can not be the naughty girl I once desired to be. Oh I am so much in love with him and he has no idea just how fucked up I am. I mean I love this guy!
