Im Mistress Rebecca. If you would have told me even just last year I would be a.dom for BDSM I would have thought your crazy but im hear today to tell you thats exsactly what happened and i couldnt be happier. I have very low self esteem. Low self worth. Body image shame. And thats just to name a few. But nothing prepared me for what was about to happen to me. I have a male friend who is what you can call a FWB. Although I am A sexual so our relationship is rare. He is truely my best friend and im so happy I met him while visiting my daughter's house 3 yrs ago this July. Well a few months back he asked me if i heard of fetlife. No im the mother of 5. Nana to 8 have a huge busy schedule what the heck is fetlife? Is this something I should know about? He said check it out and let me know what you think. Ok i said. I never did. Then one day a few weeks later he asked again. I said oh yeah I looked into that (lying my ass off) it looked real cool. He looked at me. Really?? He said. Your kinda into that. Oh God yeah. Why not. Its no big deal. He still looking at me in disbelief. So ummm... What role are you??? What role am I? Uhh you know i haven't quite decided yet. Oh yeah he said. You have to be sure. Im a sub. I like being called slut and humilated and spanked. Is that weird. Well I didnt really understand anything he said but spanked. I knew a few people who liked to be spanked. I even help one guy with that once in a while. So I said no nothing weird. And then changed the subject. Ok so after he.left I was hitting the internet like what the heck is fetlife and sub and spanked so im typing in all these KEY words and Google keeps coming up with stuff that's referring to BDSM. I know hes not talking about that. That's that crazy shit people get into but what is he talking about? well to make a long story short. That was exactly what he was talking about. And BDSM has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. My self esteem. My self worth. My confidence. They are all so much better. I cant believe how good i feel about myself. Even some if the body shame is better. I mean BDSM has done for me what 25 yrs of therapy hasnt even come close to. I'm still going to therapy but I love BDSM. I was never educated on it correctly I+0 listened to others that obviously didnt know what they were talking about. I spend hrs on line researching about it. And I am so into the rope bondage. Its been so healthy for me. It slows my head down. I have to focus on what im doing so hard. I have no time but to only concentrate on the task on hand. Its just awesome and i tell everybody that will listen to me. I love it. It gave me life again. It brings me joy and1 it will be apart of me forever now. Im going to my first munch in May. Im so excited. I cant wait. I have had the honor to meet and talk to some people in the lifestyle but i want to meet everybody. I want to hear your stories! So with that said I was going to write a blog on a fictional story that I made up (but secretly am hoping my FWB will do to me ...lol. I can put the dom aside for a min to do this....hehehe) but it said to make your 1st blog an interdution about yourself. So thats me. I hope I didn't bore you. But my next blog will be right up about a girl who finds herself in a tricky bondage position being asked to perform oral sex. I think its hot but I've never writtn a story like this before so I hope you enjoy it. Been a pleasure to meet all of you. Much Love....... Mistress R❤️
