Hey Everyone,
I am not sure whether is it the right place to write this but anyhow I am writing it.i have been heartbroken 2 times in past 2 weeks.i feel like I am joker in my circle.i just entertain people.. I can be friend but can't be loved. I was with one girl 2 years back. We were dating and it was going very good suddenly after 5 months she came and told me that we can't see each other without any explanation.. I didn't understand and I tried and tried to reach her and get the things sorted out but she never bothered.. Then I moved on and left the city and moved to bangalore and from past 1 year I was okay. I do remember her sometime and get upset but not this much..I thought she might have her reasons for not telling me and I moved on.. But suddenly 2-3 weeks before she called me that she is getting married on 24th and she just kept crying and saying things and things to me which hurt me so much.. She was crying and telling me all those things.. I didn't understand why the hell are you calling me 2-3 weeks before your marriage and telling me all these.. Where were you when I was chasing you like an idiot.. Even if you had your reason.. you could have told me we would have sorted out or we would have mutually agreed and broken things.. I suffered too much at that time and now also I am suffering.. She might be suffering but tell me what can I do.. I tried everything.. I tried to reach her so many times.. I contacted mutual friends.. Even I went Mumbai multiple times and went to same cafes and pubs we used to go.. Just that I will get lucky and I can meet her.. But nothing.. She called me now and tell me all these and shook my world.. Now I am not able to do anything... Now let me tell you one. More things. I don't know why am I writing all this.. May be I just need to tell somebody and I can't talk to my friends becuase they are thinking something else which involve me and one of My colleague(girl) and my roommate(also colleague) They just told. Me That they are together from past one year and I am working with them from past 1 year but they didn't tell me.. I never suspected because they never seen me as couple but whatever happened and I Am happy for Them and they are thinking I Am sad because I liked my colleague and now she is with my roommate..now I am going through this bad time and I don't have badnwith to explain anyone what is happening in my life..
I don't whether it is destiny or fate.. But she(my ex) gifted me a watch when we were together and that watch stopped working on 2nd January and I got call from her on 8th January and rest you all read (assuming that you are still reading).. At one point i am sad and another point I am laughing and thinking what kind of signal God gave me.. The watch stopped working and after 3-4 days.. I get this news..
So this is my story.. I know for some people it may be filmy or weird but It happened with me..
So yeah.. My new year is fucked up already.. I got 3-4 messed up things parellaly going on..
Inshort I am fucked up and messed up.. And I don't know when am I going to move on from this and when will I get peace from all these.. But I know for sure I can't be loved..
Thank you if you read whether you like.. Dislike or hate it..
