For as long as I can remember, I have imagined scenarios of women in bondage. Even at an early age, I would imagine women with their breasts, neck and hands bound naked in shackles. I would become erect watching the Avengers when Emma would be tied and restrained. My images at that early age and through adolescence never focused on the vagina or pubic hair, which I found a turn off at that time.
I learned to masturbate at a very early age and was obsessed with women's breasts, stomach, hips and buttocks. I would rub my cock on the bed sheet up and down lying flat on my stomach and when I hit my teens and ejaculated for the first time, I was shocked. My parents had divorced and my Mother, who I lived with, never explained sex to me and that conversation never ever took place.
My first reel experience with a woman happened later when I was eighteen. It was clumsy and uncomfortable, but a necessary series of experiences slowly brought me back to those original images and fantasies.
Why do some women enjoy pain? The answer is varied. Why do I enjoy inflicting pain? Some would say it is objectifying but I do not believe there is any single simple answer. I like to touch, explore, taste and most of all I love the reaction I receive from my partner from doing so. The more she reacts, the more euphoric the high for me. But it must be arousal and pleasure. Inflicting pain and hurting someone is a complete turn off for me. Making her do what they she does not like is a turn off for me. Paying to have sex is also a turn off for me, because the arousal is not there. Role play paying is different because again it drives her arousal and in turn mine.
Sex is empty for me unless I see her breath change as her eyes shut taking her to that catharsis state. When a woman reacts in that way to a bite of her nipple, to a light kiss that ends in a sudden bite of her lip, to my fingers entering her wet cunt, to the point that she wants more and more, I enter my state of pleasure.
Intercourse is not really part of the play. It is all about giving pleasure and riding her high. She has control of me. She knows it. She can stop me at any moment if I go too far. And it is her power over me to objectify me to be her toy, her pleasure that gives me satisfaction. To push her further and still have her not stop me leaves me desiring her more. I want to take her beyond any point she has experienced with any other man. I want her to be lost in her pleasure and with that she takes me out of this celestial state to the high and I am now addicted to her entirely.
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1:48 pm Thursday, 22nd November, 2018
This is beautifully written very erotic.You asked why some women enjoy pain well for me its really simple.That pleasurable pain is a release of tension.The high derived from giving and receiving pain is unexplainable and what i can tell u is that once u have expirienced it u are always chasing it. |
